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Sunday, October 23, 2005

Todae will be a good day to blog. Why? The reason is very simple. I'm in quite a good mood. Its been quite long since i felt this good at the end of the day.

Yesterday....
I went singing with my frenz at jurong kbox. Reached there at 11.05am. We took the K lunch package. Indeed, it was still the same, juz like the last time me and blader went to sing, the same old 3 choice of food. They are delifrance, laksa and chicken rice. -__-'' Quite fun in there. But the most important thing i want to highlight is that, its realli very cold in there. Man!!! I was shivering. The next time i go there, i make sure i bring along something to keep me warm. Well, after that, we went long john to eat and parted after the meal as Im gonna meet alan and xiu han at jurong mrt station. We are heading towards city hall, where padang is situated at. We are workin in a charity event organised by the stock exchange holdings. This 'lobang' was from Alan sister boyfriend's friend. This job is realli slack and high paid. Alan, Val, Xiu Han and I were in charged of the baggage counter. Our jobs are to look after the runner's belongings. Its as simple and easy as it sounds. We are paid 50 bucks, working from 4-9 pm. $10/per hr. Where to get this kind of job? If i have this kind of job everyday. I dun think i need to continue my studies in Ngee Ann. After working, we went to suntec food court to take our dinner.

Todae...
Didnt realli do much todae... I juz went down to ytcc to play ball as a fren told me he will be going down. It has been many months since the last time we played together in ytcc. My performance was rather good. Made a few important shots to bring my team back into the game. ZhengYang net a few 3s too. I think we played quite ok. We won a few teams before taking a seat at the sidelines. I felt quite happy and really enjoyed. This is the good feeling I was talking about. Realli, it has been very long since i felt like this. I FEEL GOOD!!!
tke care everyone...

2:19 PM

Monday, October 17, 2005

Dunno wad title to put so i juz put question marks. Well, shall update wad i have been doin from fridae till now.

Friday.....
Didnt go down to play ball at cc coz heard wenfa saying the other day that they are training alittle for the upcoming skudai cup, so it will be meaningless to go down bahz. Realli having this feeling that i dun realli belong to the club le ba. With no upcoming competitions for me, A div still abit far away, inter-constituency too... Perhaps i can juz play ball for the fun of it bahz. Sometimes i juz enjoy the pressure-free feeling. So basically todae, i was actually at home doin nth, then out of a sudden xi hong smsed me that his house no one, asked me if i wanna go over for some ktv session. Lol.. I was thinking not a bad idea. At first was feeling tired and reluctant to go, but i also dun wanna reject his kind offer as this time round, there's no one in his hm. So i arrived his hse at abt 3pm. Brought my small collection of ktv discs. We sang together, quite fun la.. It den started raining. Its a bad sign as i brought along my bball attire. Last nite my fren and i alr agreed to play ball at teck whye lrt court together with another 2 at 7 pm. So went in msn to confirm with her... In the end, lucky the weather was fine again. So everything was smooth. So went to the bus stop to meet her and walk to the court. Played quite happily, fun, though we lost every match... Lol, but most imptly must enjoy. I felt quite carefree while playing, very enjoyable. thnx pal... Back home, i chat on msn till 4 plus. Quite tiring actually but was fun. Was using the video conversation, very fun indeed.

Saturday...
Was thinking whether should i go down to cc to play ball as i was havin a sore throat and im still feeling tired as i slpt very late the previous nite. Becca woked me up with an aftn call at 1 plus, was still in bed before tt. Picked up the call, still semi- conscious i think. She asked if i wanna play ball at cc, i heard as goin k box... lol i think im realli mad over singing liao. I told her i sms her again as i juz woke up. Tried getting back to slp but to no avail. Im tired but i cant slp. -__-''
Wai Ming msged me in msn asking if im goin cc not, told him i cant confirm. In the end, i decided to make my way to cc as i felt like playing ball. Reached there and sat on the bench. Later played a team with dong and gang. Afterwards smth juz happen and i found myself at new court. At first i was juz shooting ball, but slowly there were more ppl coming to play. So we decided to form teams and played. I enjoyed playing. Same, i felt very carefree, enjoyable and happy.

Sunday...
Todae, basically i juz watched vcd and chatting in msn the whole dae. It was raining cats and dogs outside so even if i tot of goin out, also bit troublesome. Tmr gonna go gym with xi hong.

Tke care everyone....

1:59 AM

Friday, October 14, 2005

yawnz... Wanna slp also cannot... -__-'' perhaps im not slpy and tired enuff to get into slp... haa wad a theory.. well haven been blogging for days so gotta update the readers here on my life in this short period of time. I shall start off with ......

Saturday....
Woke up earli at abt 8 plus for work at 11pm. Met up with Xi hong to take our breakfast at a coffee shop near our workplace. After tt we proceed to our office to start work. But didnt expect it is a wasted trip. When we reached the office, our supervisor wanted to see the both of us. So we sat down in our office with our colleagues to wait for her. When she came back, she asked the both of us to follow her outside of the office to talk. She told me tt she was aware tt im still stuck with only 1 sale. She asked what are the difficulties i faced and why couldnt i close those potential sales. So i told her that mayb im weak in persuading others to sign up lo. I am also aware that its quite hard for her too, as the her bosses want results. Hence, she asked if i could give her any sales tt day, if cant den she wont put me down to work le, in other words, SACKED ON THE SPOT. lol So i shooked my head. She then asked Hong if he wanted to continue working even when Im not, as he was with 2 sales and was able to continue work. He told her that he didnt want to continue working le. Not bad, he also got yi qi, but i dun mean if he continues working, he dun have yi qi la.. haa Im understanding de ok. Yea so basically, it was a wasted trip tt day. My supervisor could have called us earlier to inform or talk to us. Not as though we live near Bugis. Actualli also dont realli like her, the way she handle things. She knows shes gonna put an end to my job, still can wait for us to come down, made us think that it will be our last day for work, but actually wanna work last day also cant, went all the way to bugis to be dismissed by her. She is also an adult so i expect a better decision made by her. At least, allow me to continue working my last 6 hrs. After that, both of us went to walk for a while in bugis den later headed to town. We then decided to go kbox sing. Haa quite fun though, sing till abit no voice. At the end of the Kbox session, Xi Hong will perform an Ah Du's HELLO infront of me... haa realli funny.. after tt, took bus home to change into my bball attire. Carmen asked me down as she was free i think. Actually dun intend to play basketball games liao, but very long din play with her le so got no choice. Well, tt day played quite happily bahz, though han, alan, val and ming werent there. Wan mei, prisc, jas were there too. Yong KUn jiu lai yi ge, todae ma jiam gathering.. haa nice wan.. haix, though cc now still got ppl to play with, but its not the same as before. Things have also changed. Hmmm....

Monday.....
woke up earli to attend smth in school at 10. When i reached there, actually, its like a trial of online enrolment program which means tt im the chose guinea pigs, there are also a few other students with special cases like repeated modules. yea.. Din realli noe wads goin on, if i knew that it was this kind of thing, i wouldnt have go. Waste my time, haix. After tt, i juz borrowed a ball to shoot in the sch's half court for a while and headed back home. Spend my noon chatting in msn and den decided to go down to cc to play ball in the evening. YA, i couldnt controll myself, still got the ego to play ball. Went down played half court for while den started playing 5 on 5. Dunno why, suddenly got this feeling tat i got form to jump, so attempt one time. Felt that, i jumped slightly higher. After some teaching of concepts of dunking by kun and pang, i tried a few times on my own, without the aid of anyone. Ball went in, but touch the board den went in. -__-'' another one is hit behind the ring. But at least now can the motion of my hand is downards and not the usual throwing of the ball den pull the ring. But in return of this improvement, i've got myself tendon probs. After my attempts, I began to feel slight pains on my right tendon. Finally, it had come. Hope this small injury wont stop me from playing.

Tues....
This day is like a meet up. I met up with qiang and accompanied him to walk in bugis to buy smth. After tt, we met up with li yu, becca and tPIN at long john. When i reached CCk, my mum smsed me asking if i wanna join her for dinner, initially i rejected her by telling her im eating with my frenz. Then later after much thought, i decided to went up to look for my mum and join her for dinner as she was alone. Dunno why, but i am starting to noe how to treat my mum better. I noe the feeling of loneliness, dining outside alone. So i felt rather guilty and decided to accompany her. After that, i went down to long john to find the others. Chatted for a while and den went to Kbox to sing... Li Yu, not bad sia ;)... Din expect to sing BEI FENG CHUI GUO DE XIA TIAN so fast with a girl. Its one of the many songs i like. Tpin also can sing lei.. Sing a few solos (applaud)... Becca also rapper... Qiang, as usual la, dun need to say much. Alwayz make my jaws wide open and look at him in amazement. lol Enjoyed tt nite with them... Sang the 7-3 package... tiring but memorable nite. ;)

Wed...
Went down to BP to play with blader, well enjoyed playing with him. As usual, he is still netting those 2s and 3s. Gd job!

Todae...
actually intend to go down cc, but its raining now... so got nth to do but to blog and chat and play FM.. boring dae for me...

tke care everyone...

9:12 AM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

I remember coach kept telling us, this is realli a real world, very realistic. In basketball, u muz have size and height, if not ure gonna lose out. Think it applies to everything bahz. And now, i have some pressures from my job. 8 bucks per hr for a telemarketeer. Sounds great? How i wish... Now the supervisor is stressing on the sale we are making. Worse still, she or the department had came up with this per hr sales. Meaning, it will calculate how mani hrs u will need to close a sale. She juz told us todae tt she ever dimiss her employees who dun meet the minimum requirements. Realli abit sianx liao. Its as though we are not working hard to make the calls. Todae i made a career high of 79 calls. -__-'' Some of them realli not interested, or dun have com, or seldom at home, or seldom use internet. I have alr done the presentation liao, they dun wanna sign up also no choice. In my pt of view, this type of thing realli need alot of luck. For ex, juz so happen i call this person who is alr thinking of signing up or is unsure whether to sign up or interested to noe abt the promotions. Argh...

Worse still, i spoke to a girl older than me by 1 yr juz now, explained most of the infos regarding the promotion. In the end, she said that she will discuss it with her parents and den if she realli decide to sign up, she will sign up from her fren. -__-' her fren also working for starhub telemarketing. Dunno why i lose my patience or wad but i juz felt so pissed with her after i hung up. If i dun get my 2nd sale by this week, perhaps i will be sacked or sent to the training class again. Ridiculous...

Dunno wads wrongwith everything. Nth goes rite. I realli hate myself...

Well todae at interchange saw this old pal of mine. Was quite glad to see him but also rather disappointed too. He had changed quite alot though i dun noe wad realli happen tt result in this change. He came so stranger to me. I still can remembered the happi times we had in class. Joking ard, sharing probs, helping one another in our studies, playing ball together... Some times its quite sad to experience this kind of situation. Hes a nice fren but i think i have lost him. I think in this world, one of the most fearful factor to me is being lonely. I dunno wad i have done in my life that im proud of. At least i noe when im realli down or lost perhaps there will be one or 2 fren who will be there for me, at least to hear my troubles.

Recently i also dunno wad realli happen, but i juz felt that i might be having some communications break down with a fren whom i tot hes my close fren. I think mayb our characters are too different.

I wonder, then, if i hold on to it, if im matured enuff to think, will i end up in this terrible state. At least i noe, when im lost, she will be the first to guide me. When im sad, she'll be the first to cheer me up. When im happi, she'll be the first person i share with. When im lonely, she shall be the one to keep me company. But too bad....

ITS A REAL WORLD AFTER ALL.........................

4:13 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

after much considerations and thoughts, ive decided to temporary stop playing basketball. Perhaps the most is juz practise my shooting and school trainings. I think im juz deceiving myself everytime when i step into the court. In my mind, I kept telling myself '' u can do it. Though ure short, but u can jump, help ur team grab some rebounds. Ure sharp in ur shooting, can help ur team to net a few shots. Ure quite swift in ur penetrate, can help to score some baskets or create open space for ur team mates. U can apply those defensive techniques that u have learnt in eng tat and apply them in ur games. '' Its really time for me to reflect on my progress and performance in this fav. game of mine for the past 5 yrs. I shall continue my gym trainings, come up with a daily mass and fat gaining meal schedule... I dunno if this will work out. But at least i noe, for this fav. game of mine, im willing to try my best and sacrifice anything if i have to, to achieve my target. Think i need some breather too. Time to stop entering into the playing court, which includes the thurs and sats at ytcc and eng tat 5 on 5. But this will happen oni after tmr's 3 on 3. lol hope i can leave happily by performing well in this small competition in ntu. Got another chance to play alongside han and val. Too bad we are playing under the opens category, so wont expect us to play very far. if we realli lose, i juz hope we can still have fun and enjoy tmr. This will be my so called last ''game''. To be continued......

4:22 PM