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ME !

Name: Choong Jiun Perng Alvin(小四)

D.O.B: 24/02/1987

Hometown: CCK

Current Status: Enlisted on 9 July 2008. Now a trainee in Signals.

Future: Hoping to study a PT/FT degree in SIM. An alternative will be to be a teacher.

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MY DREAMS

* I dun dream big. Just a decent salary to support a family, an enjoyable working environment, keeping in contact with my pals. Last but not least is to stay healthy MAN!!!.

MY ESCAPE

shestheone
Val
CoachMax
YingQi
QiXiang
Jamie
Dong
Dnise
AlanChan
Xiuey
Jasney

MY HECTIC PAST

April 2005
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September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
February 2006
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July 2006
September 2006
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
September 2008
November 2008

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Phew! A day has juz passed like this, so easily. But think is realli quite tiring for me. Cant realli stand for hrs and I slept at 3 plus last nite. The ppl there are nice and frenli. But dunno is this onli temporary, afraid that during e long run, i might discover their bad pts. Hope not bahz. Its quite enjoyable to work there, but i think i muz learn how to endure long hrs of standing. Such weak legs i have. Well, think i dun have to worry that my holis are gonna be boring. Think when sch reopens, i have to realli wake up my idea and buck up on my studies. No more fooling ard and wasting time. I have wasted 1 yr of my poly sch days. Have been realli realli slack. My marks are mostly at the borderline. Have failed 1 module in each sems. Gonna stop this shit. Not gonna let unimportant stuffs affect my studies anymore. Im starting to feel abit guilty for not putting much effort in my studies. YCT cup is rd the corner. I was selected to play for the junior team. Well nowadays not realli that enthu in playin main 5 or whether i can perform during the match. Somehow juz lost e enthusiasm. Juz feel that as long as i can still play Bball, im very happy and contented alr. Feel like goin tanning at cck pool again. The environment is gd as there is onli a few souls in the late mornin. Mayb can jio some ppl to accompany me, or i shall go dwn myself again. Actualli during this holiday, i sort of learn how to live this world alone, or mayb used to it alr. I dunno whether its a gd or bad thing. Dun wanna noe either. Nvm shall wait for another soul who is willing to accompany me thru this lonely dull world... Tke care every1 and never neglect ur loved ones... Gd nitez... -__-Zzz

4:37 PM
Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Have been trying hard to make myself 'busy', if not I will feel miserable and terrible staying at home. It also helps to stop myself from thinking unnecessary things. Ytd went to watch the senior hornets battling against the stronger and defending champs of A div, Home U. Well, sad to say but true, during their warm ups, I already think that the hornets will have to go beyond their limits in order to win this battle. Home U has a huge depth of better players, compared to hornets. The hornets tried their best, but to no avail. They lost 24 pts. Michael wasnt realli in his top form for his 3s. Da Kang also fumble at times, din realli perform his best. Sad to see them lost their 2nd consecutive finals to their same opponents.

Today, I din realli have anything on. Basically juz went to the gym in late noon with Alan. Din realli do much work out there as I was quite restless. After tt, went home to rest and cycle to ytcc to shoot bball at nite. Quite borin actualli as there wasnt much ppl there too. After tt went cycling ard. Realli enjoyed the ride as I havent been riding for quite some time. Cycling realli can free me frm my daily problems. Haiz, but thats onli temporary. The moment i reached home, everythings back to normal. Well, Im still me, still have my list of troubles and problems. How I wish I can run and hide away from them. But its hard too. I cant even bring myself to do tt. They are alwaz in my mind, and everyday im facing them. Cant escape unless im dead or migrating else where; living in a new environment. Some times, when smth tt u once treasure is gone, it will be gone 4ever. Even if its back, the scenario and feeling will never be the same again. Same old words, treasure ur loved ones now for they may not be forever.

Current mood: TENSION- Oh tell me why

4:08 PM
Saturday, April 16, 2005

Hehe. My title act like very excited. But actually theres nth special. Haix now listening to 'I'll be with you'. Suddenly have this thought that as if i have no friends, feeling so lonely. Its also difficult to explain the feeling. My heart felt very uncomfortable, as though it was compressed. Last time, I lived my life with goals, targets, dreams and at the same time, i felt that I'm never lonely. Well, its a total change now. I think Im nowhere near my targets and i don't think I can ever achieve them. On the other hand, I kind of have this thinking that I'm living this world alone. I have lost the reason to live. It seems like Im getting to nowhere. Aimless, depressed, low moraled, blank. I even lost my mood to find job le. Everyday, Im either juz playing PC games or basketball. Nothing much. What an aimless life im living. Juz hope school to start soon. Opps! Almost forgot to mention, I dun even noe if Im eligible to prmote to Yr 2. -__-''' Think shall juz let god decide since I have already tried studying for my exams, though I din put in alot of effort. So thats all for my first post, juz plainly xpressing my feelings and thoughts.
-LONE-

3:23 PM