.Our new beginnning.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

After the first week of school, i dun realli have tat high level of motivation to study well. Is it another thrilling sem for me, that i will pray hard to juz get a D for my modules? Or i will be hoping to get better grades and not even worryin whether i will fail or not? I realli dunno... Realli hope not... I wanna get better grades... Will try not to allow myself to slack... Finish all my tutorials, no skipping of lectures or tutorials at all... Listen attentively... Haiz, this will lead to another qn, should i go back to PATARA to work? Perhaps onli during the weekends? Mayb eric wont allow that coz a part-timer shld work at least 4 shifts? But i need some cash. Wanna dress up nicely, at least to suit more with the trend these days.. *DILEMMA* Anyway, i'm gonna cut my hair tmr, hope my hair stylist can cut a hairstyle which suits me, at the same time suit with the new trend too... Pray hard that tmr hes free at 1 coz i have yet to make any reservations... Argh!!! Tmr's my first game... Wish me luckssss guys... Shall show everybody wad i can do best... shootin, driving, jumpin, swiftness.... At a blink of an eye, Im alr 18, playin my last youth cup... Im old le... How far can i go in BBAll? I wonder.........

3:23 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2005

ha wad a title to start with... hee hee... but i doubt so if theres any... btw recently there isnt much thing happens and im as usual, busy with my work.. Well actualli i saw this decent young lady dining at my workplace.. Oh gosh, she realli make mi skip a few heart beats... Haven been goin thru this type of special feeling for a looong time le.. U guys need not anyhow think... She isnt gorgeous, dun have super nice figure, no heavy make ups, but she simply gives me the x factor, the special feel ... Made some eye contacts with her and was successful to catch her attention... ha but in the end she somehow, trying to send a message to me using her body language... She rest her head on her palms with her elbow lying on the table... And her ring was clearly seen... hehehe on the 4th finger of her left hand... OOOh... INteresting.. hahhaa!!! But i guess she is in her early 20s... So its impossible... Ha but quite an interesting experience... Coach has announced the name list of selected players for this coming youth cup... Yupx im selected... but not realli thrilled or excited... Coach and myself noes that i have deproved le... also dunno wad im doin... my last youth cup le... and yet not doin any preperations... Think i will be shooting some balls tmr nite bahx... MY SHOOTING FEEL, WHERE ARE YOU!!! hehehee Yea tmr goin sentosa with YQ... SHUANG MANX!!! ttS ALL folks... tke care!!!

4:53 PM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

hAiZzz... think, after living for 18 yrs, this yr shall be the yr which i learn to be matured. Matured in wadever i do. Learn how to think. Learn how to react. Learn how to handle my stuffs. Learn how to do all of these maturedly... haha is there a word like this? hmmm anyway yes, this yr shall be the turning pt of my life. Where i will start living my life slidely different due to some changes to it. Loneliness will be felt in most of my days. Lucky Im already used to it. Phew! Now juz need to find some motivation and ego to study. Hehee thinking of finding a partner for it. HMMM who shall it be? Well have a few ppl in mind actualli but mayb there will be a problem. And tt is conveniency. Ha SHall see how it goes. Youth cup is also ard the corner too. Haven done any preparations for it. My gdness. Its my last tourney and yet im not putting any effort? Think its too late bahz. Mayb can onli try to get back my shooting touch. The rest is juz based on my weekly trainings le. Think this yr will also be the same bahz... No one supporting... hehehee mayb im destined not to have any1 supporting me... Last yr during tt period, dun have a gf, while this season, a no tooo... Mayb god realli wans me to learn how to be independent... I shall learn hard tooo.... Coz i will need to be independent in the future... So why not start now... hmm gd idea indeed. HA... There is still another week to go before school starts and before i stopped working. Cant wait for this day to come. Realli cant stand everything in work anymore. Atrocious sialx... Nvm. Its my life. ITs hard... Anyway on the other hand, also feel tt its a bad idea that sch is starting. It means i have to start studying alr, less playing time for me unless for weekends. It will be a busy sem as i promised myself to work hard. Realli dunno how determined i am and do i have tt ego to accomplish my task. Juz try my best and zou yi bu suan yi bu liao. Well when sch reopens, everything will kind of change a little too. My timetable might not be the same as my classmates too. Which means i will alone again. Studying with new classmates for my repeated module.... Hmmm shall look forward this sem with new hopes and goals... Be positive and strong... If not u will end up losing everything... Yea!!!! I hope all my frenz will have this phrase in their mind at all times... Strive hard guys!!! take care...

3:36 PM

Friday, May 13, 2005

ooOOH!!! Hell man! Todae is a realli realli busy day. Lucky everything its over. Phew! Even the boss of patara came down which i dunno for wad reasons. Finally got a chance to put everything clear to my manager that im not working when school starts. Haix haven been feeling quite well recently. Sundae nite having a terrible stomachache. Den heard that the customers had complain for food poisoning. Hmm? No wonder! And now im feeling abit unwell again. YEs! ITs my stomach. Argh!!! Lucky tmr not working. HAiz... Now looking back ay my life, think im starting to see some light. Starting to be matured in my thinking. I noe some things will not be the same as before. Gd things that happen to me in the past, will not be experiencing anymore. Everything has changed. And here I am to say once again, A new chapter of my life has begun. WEll, think i shld have this mind set. There is onli 1 life, so why not learn to live it to the fullest? Enjoy it? Make yourself happy instead of misery! yea so hope all my frenz out there will have this mindset too... stay happi and tke care!

1:27 AM

Friday, May 06, 2005

Phew! Tiring day indeed. Limbs are weak. Haix quite sianx too. Ah neh realli abit over board le. Its my first time packin up the dessert stuffs. Realli idiot lei. Of course im slow ma. DUHZ. But nvm la, this is human being. They tend to neglect how other's feel. I understand la so wont hold grudges. Went home with my captain who stays near YTCC. Had quite a little long conversation. Quite enjoyed the ride home. Nth much todae. Gonna go tanning with 'eminem'. Yea finalli found a partner. After tt still have to go queensway to buy shoe with alan. And at nite, its training time. Hope it will enjoyable. ;) Tke care every1

4:01 PM

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Yes, the title states everything for this post. Worked the whole day, glad that time passed quite fast. Everything goes quite smoothly in Patara. Quite contented and comfortable to work there le. Well actualli im feeling kind of bored and sian to work le, but at the same time i noe that if i dun work, i will be living each day aimlessly in my own world, and alwaz feeling that time pass very slowly. Dilemma* But of course is continue workin lo, at least still can earn money to buy my own stuffs. Today business was quite ok. Not very busy too. But somehow quite tired. Well think i have made a promise to myself. Juz hope that i wont break it again and again, like i did in the past. *Pray Hard*. Think as for basketball, i shall juz continue my own mentality le. Let nature take its course. Dun wanna purposely train for it. Im selected then gd for me. Not selected then its fine for me. Ha heck care le. Playing main 5 of not, is no longer a problem or goal for me le. I noe coach doesnt have confidence on me. I admit im not gd either. Juz waiting for MX to take over 1 day. Well tts all, tke care every1. ;)

4:09 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Its realli quite long since i last blog. Have been quite busy recently. Working and playin YCT cup. Juz played the our last match todae and it kind of sucked. Haiz. Miss passes everywhere. Dunno why too. Think my first 2 matches are better. Well after these few matches, i dun realli think i have any improvement. My way of playing and idea is still like a naive and innocent young teen playing basketball. Mayb there is realli some reasons behind it that ive yet to find out. Looking at myself in Bball, wondering how long will i still be playing competitively. Will i end juz like tt after this yr's youth cup? Or there will be a miracle? Think let it be natural bahz. Long time din get encouragement and support frm ppl liao. Thnx to those 3 who had came dwn to watch and the writings on the balloon. Realli appreciate it. Actualli once in a while receive this kind of support and encouragement is kind of touched, knowing that in ths world, there are actualli ppl who feel ur presences. THnx man! Not forgetting another 3 who came to watch and support every match. Be it whether they juz wan to witness this match instead of supporting me or wadever reasons, i appreciate their presences. ;) Realli grateful guys. XH, actualli felt abit uncomfortable when i din see u came todae as u said earlier on tt u will. But juz read ur blog, that few words is enuff le. Thnx too. Looking at my messed up life now, realli dunno wad to do. Dunno which to start clearing up and start a fresh. Wondering how long will i have to be alone in this road. Nowadays, nth much 2 do. Onli can work and train. Is my life realli this happening? haha! Man, i muz learn how to be strong and stay positive in the future. Think i have to start from scratch bahz. Haix. T8 care frenz. =)

3:11 PM