A new beginning, a new chapter of my life starts to unfold.... again.

a change for the better....

2008-11-30T00:50:00.002+08:00

Well, finally ended my Basic Section Leaders Course in Sispec. Really must thank god, that I am being posted to Signals at Stagmont Camp. I really dun know how will I become if I were to stay on for the Advance course in Sispec or posted to armour or artillery units. I always thought that i do not have luck on my side. Its not bad after all. At least when i need it most.

Im also quite lucky to see 3 familiar faces in my bunk. One of them is my platoon mate back in bmt days. We were in different companies in sispec. But now same platoon and bunk somemore. Such a coincidence. We often talk craps, fool around, joke around. Call ppl names, discover those secret characters in our platoon. But we mean no harm, its just for our own entertainment. The other 2 will be from the same platoon in sispec. One of them is bed buddy somemore. GUess wad, by nominal role, he is also my bed buddy in signals... what is the odds for this man? to have your bed buddy posted to the same unit as you and at the same time, remain as your bed buddy...

First week in Signals, i should say is slack and boring. Not much of physical trainings other than a few ippt trainings. Boring becuz of the lectures and self studies at the computer labs, learning radio sets which are physics related. Its been ages since i last see any physics related stuffs. Difficult to understand. Wonder how am i gonna pass the test even though its all mcq questions.

My new year resolution will be recovering from my cough, which has been around since bmt. I hope my leg injury will not be as bad as before. I hope I can be more sensitive towards the ppl around me. I hope i can be a better person next year.

2 more weeks to go!!!

2008-11-02T16:21:00.002+08:00

2 weeks time i will have my 28 km route march. 2 weeks time i will finish my basic course. 2 weeks time i will pass out as a coporal. 2 weeks time i hope to get into my ideal vocation and leave the current camp. Which means 2 weeks time, I may part with some or most of my mates. Hope everything turns out good.

Hmmm, everytime when it comes to booking in, I will always feel I havent really enjoyed myself and relax much. Time really past quite fast. Next min, its time to book in again. But lucky, Im sort of used to it already. Next week I hope I can plan and carry out the things that I wish to do over the weekends so as not to maximise and put my civilian time to good use.

p.s. Hope you will be able to complete what u wanna study and be ready for your exams:) You have my support. Dun have to worry if we din spend much time together. There are plenty of time in the days ahead.

A new stage of my life... NS, exclusively for SGporeans...

2008-09-17T22:19:00.004+08:00

Well, unwilling but i still have to serve the nation. I think I had kind of lost touch to the world outside. Not reading news, not knowing whats going on around me. In other words, I am like living in my own world. Just when I thought that going home will make me feel better, I had to think twice. The naggings at home really makes me sick. Somehow i just hope that the adults can feel me. Its like I dun feel the warmth when Im at home. Haven really been enjoying my block leave as well. There are quite a number of stuffs that i wanna do but i dun think it can be done. Just feel that im all by myself once again, being independent.

But NS do have its own positive sides. Without it, I will not even get to know my platoon mates. Really appreciate and wanna thank the ppl who have helped me in one way or another or pushed me along when i thought that i couldn make it during my BMT. The joy, the pain, the laughters we shared are really priceless and memorable. Tmr will be our posting results and i hope all of us will be satisfied with our postings. I feel that the 2 months had passed quite fast. Really feels like i just woke up from a dream. Nevertheless, its time to move on again. Monday, i will have to introduce myself again, get to know new ppl. This process kind of suck as im kind of an introvert. No choice.

Hope everything goes smoothly...

2008-06-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Its getting near....

2008-05-22T14:59:00.000+08:00

Time really flies. Im already counting the days to my last working day. I have already worked for nearly 2 months. Many thoughts are running thru my head right now. Glad that next week will be my last week in MOE. But yet, it means my enlistment around the corner. I do not know what to expect from this phase of life as I wont be able to apply most of the technical stuffs I learn in there in my future job. It is a totally different thing from the past phases like when I just graduated from kindergarten and moving on to primary school education and etc. Im not the the kind of person who can really get used to a new environment and things around me. Hence, I really hope that i can get along with my future bunkmates and also they will make my time past faster with fun and memorable experience. For now, Im not walking aimlessly in life. Im already setting goals for NS. I hope to get into OCS. If Im not shortlisted, at least I hope to be a PTI. After ns, I will like to pursue a degree with honors in SIM. Ideal courses will be computer science or ISM. Then go NIE to be teacher. But im getting bit doubtful about this career path as I read in a forum saying that being a teacher is no playground. Really need to think twice. Very high workload. Principal may have favourisms. Just becoz you love kids or teaching doesnt mean you should be a teacher. The job doesnt seems as easy as it looks from the outside. Well I do not know how true is this but, every now and then, there will be teachers handing resignation letters. Lucky for me, I still have ample time to consider this option. What is important is that to get a degree no matter what so as to give yourself more and better options. As a kid, I always have great admiration and respect to soldiers. Think they look smart wearing smart 4s, carrying rifles and also cool looking with their tanned skin. In a months time, I will experience how is it like to be a soldier....

2008-05-15T11:30:00.002+08:00

Recently attended a fren's bdae party and it was quite fun. Its all thanks to Tim and Subash. They were my sec. sch mates. The CCKS clique were all in the room listening to Subash's interesting army encounters and also funny incidents that happened all the way back in sec sch. It was actually these funny incidents that happened around him made me felt regretful.

To Subash, these are the funny events tat took place during his time in CCKS. Perhaps they were funny enough to make him remember. I was thinking, why there aint any similar kinds of events happening around me? I then consulted my classmate of 4 years, kok how. He said actually there are, but most of them happened after the school. I doubted him as I cant recall any. And then, he told me I wasnt with the clique most of the time after school. This is the weirdest moment man. It was kindof sad. He is right. I could only recall myself busy playin bballs, trainings, watching matches, thinking abt BGR stuffs. Bcoz of these, I missed a hell of fun with them. Damn MAN!!! I guess thats life.

There are things that you could have done but you din. Really feeling regretful to some extent. Its a sad thing that I left school without any fond memories. Hope every1 cherish and put their time to good use so as to do it with no regrets.

Wads been happening recently....

2008-04-24T09:45:00.010+08:00

Recently didn realli take out some time to blog. Dunno wads stopping me, it mayb fewer ppl are reading it or I am just pure lazy. But I always think that it’s a good habit as it helps you to reflect wad u did before, the events that happen, your thoughts at that very moment. You will be able to see how much you have matured or the changes in your life. Hence, I decided to use the free time I had during working hours. haha

2 weeks ago on a pleasant Sunday aftern, I went for my lessons as usual. I thought that the lesson was as boring as the previous as they were on theories. Well, gotta just sit and go through the motion of things as I couldn’t expect much from theory lessons.

After lessons, I headed down to Chinatown, which was within walking distance, to meet up Val and Qx. Qx went to the SAFRA around Chinatown area to redeem his MP3 player. I think that he is quite lucky at times. His mp3 player had some problems and just so happen that he was able to use this new one as a replacement. He is always the guy with a little know how of everything. Weird that he din go OCS. Ok so our first stop will be beach road to have our meals. Next in line was SBC to witness the clash between the Hornets and Sin kee, and also, Tong whye and Tagawa. Both were great matches.

Hornets were experiencing good form in their shooting. With the likes of Michael and Tat Hong, they led a relatively young team consisting of established ex-wonderkids Des and Ronglie, and also not forgetting, Hornet’s experienced rebounder, JJP. Looks like the less favourite Sin Kee had a mountain to climb although they had a few ex-national players and 1 foreign player. The hornets were able to show what they were capable of; fast breaks, help side Ds, and shooting. They were already leading by 20 at halftime. It was nice to watch young starlets like KC and GL as they were able to cope with the pressure at playing Singapore’s top basketball league. Sin Kee was having problems coping with Hornet’s offence throughout the game. Hence, this saw them losing nearly 20 points to the Hornets.

Next up was Tong Whye against Tagawa. From the look at Tong Whye’s line up, they didn look weak at all, though without their star player, Joe. They had the nation’s first team centre, Pathman; who can be considered as a veteran with lots of experience in the game, Kendy; a known player in the league, there is this Malaysian born player, Wei Tai; one of the best left-handers in the nation, Yew Sing a.k.a turbo engine. In addition, the bench looks strong as well with Jin Quan, Boy Wonders Xiu han and Wen Bang, and duck who came up from the youth ranks of the club. During the first half of the game, Tong Whye was abit sloppy with its D. Spectators could often witness Pathman losing his rebounds to the oppositions’ centres. I din really see much effort or contest for rebounds from the 1.98m centre. Most of Tagawa’s points came from the pane and Jason, the team’s scoring machine. Tong whye’s shooting form was way off. Tagawa’s star was having the top of his game scoring from downtown, penetrations and some foul-ins. This made him arguably the man of the match. He was totally unstoppable. Credit has to be given to Tagawa’s centres as well. They really dominated in rebounds even with the giant frame of Pathman standing in their way. They didn’t let his height bother them and kept their confidence level high throughout the game. The match was a tight one with Tong Whye trying very hard to catch up with the leading team, Tagawa. There was a fast break where Tagawa was totally caught off guard. They didn anticipate the sudden change of gears by Turbo Engine and this left them chasing after the speedy player. Tong Whye was given a lifeline at the final min of the game. They were one point down to leveling up the game. The losing team was blessed with 2 free throws. Having Kendy, an experience and establish player, on the line, I thought Tong Whye will be able to turn this game around to their advantage. But then came the devastation of 2 missed free-throws. The team’s morale was record low. Hence, this wraps up the game with Tagawa winning by 1.

Regret...

2008-04-05T18:59:00.003+08:00

Realli regret for not putting much effort in my 3 years of education in Ngee Ann. And now I have to pay the price. Becoz of this, i have to take a 2nd medical test. This time the test was much stricter. I was referred to AH for further screening as my cholesterol was slightly on the higher side. CPMB require the doc in charge to come up with a detailed medical report including my pes status. Only then, they can assess me again and confirm my enlistment date. Now, looks like I bound to miss the April intake. Im realli kind of tired with the current stage of my life. Working during the weekdays to earn some cash, weekends will be resting and meetin up frenz. Actually the whole point is just waiting for that imperial letter to come, to tell me the date that i will enter the next phase of my life.

Recently met up with aj, 5 and ch for bball at cck. It is always an enjoyable thing to meet up with old pals to catch up with each of our lives.

I think im getting from bad to worse. There are actually quite alot of feelings and thoughts that i wanna express over here in words. But i cant seem to find the right word, right phrases to describe them. Argh I think i have been slacking too much and not putting my brain into good use. Hai wad a lousy entry!!! tc everybody...

Long Break From Blogging....

2007-12-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

Hi to all peeps who took some time out to read my blog, im back again from a long break. Actually I have been slacking at home. Well, after my last day at FTPPS, i told myself that i should head back to the gym more often so as to get my body back in shape. Sadly, not long later, I had a sore throat again and everything just comes back. As usual, when i have a sore throat, i will have flu the very next day. To be specific, my flu wasnt that kind of cold flu, but its just having more mucus and i need to sneeze them out as they are blocking the air way in my nostrils. Every now and then i have to sneeze them, very irritating. The mucus are those kind of greenish and thick kind which shows that my body is obviously heaty which is caused by the sore throat. The following day, it will be cough. Mine is chesty cough where u will feel an uncomfortable or tight sensation around your chest area and u will need to cough out to ease the discomfort. For me, this cough usually takes at least one week to subside, but it can take as long as 2 months or so. So this sickness is annoying as it will stop me from doing activities like balling, gymming, going out for suppers. My throat is very sensitive man. Example, if i were to eat fried kway teow, BBQ stingray, Chilli Kang Kong etc; mainly spicy or fried stuffs, and I did not drink enough water anywhere between the time after my dinner and bedtime, 100% and i must emphasize 100%, i will bound to have sore throat the following day. The the cycle of my sickness will come again.

Well, wonder why i had the time to blog??? Well it is only for today, im workin as a replacement support trainer, which is to replace a residential trainer in Zhenghua Sec. for 1 day as he wasnt available. I was told that i have to help out in the making of the ppt slides for Sec 1 Registration which is today. Sadly, when i arrive, the HOD of IT told me he do not have anything for me. SO which means the whole day frp, 8-5, unless they need some help to lighten their workload, i have realli nothing to do for the day. Boring. Moreover, i did not have enough slp last night. So now, i have to keep myself occupied and be mentally strong as i do not wish to be caught dozing off.

Oh ya, lastest update of gadget in hand, i have finally got myself a Creative Zen Vision M 30 GB. Well, it has to be 2nd hand bcoz i will be reluctant to buy stuffs like that for 4oo bucks. Just feel that, this kind of stuffs is also something like the trend, it will be popular for the time being only and will be outdated in a few years time. So to me, its best that i can get hold of this stuff paying as little as possible. I have been thinking for several months already, whether to buy this or not. In the end, i decided to buy becoz it will be useful for me. When i feel bored with listening to songs, i can view movies or tv clips. So in a way, it kills time faster and has a much better entertainment value. Imagine, you watch variety shows with Zen Vision other than movies. I can even watch LIVE concerts! Its quite nice actually. So in the end, i got mysef quite a good bargain. I bought mine in auctions at 250. Although this player had been fuctioning since feb 2006, but given that its a lady user, she stated that she had been taking good care of it and so far the player didnt give her any probs, and also she bought another 3 yrs warranty. The warranty of the player will lasts till feb 2010. I consulted my advisor, LEO QI XIANG, he too thinks that its worth it. The player is lime green in colour and is definitely in good condition.

I shall continue again later.... CIAO!!!!

My Lovely 2 Faith

2007-11-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

2 Faith(2007)- whole class PEACE

Lovely students

Busy weeks!!!!

2007-11-10T13:13:00.000+08:00

Have been absent from this blog for a month or so. I was busy with teaching IT lessons for 2 pri schools... First few weeks was First Toa Payoh Pri(FTPPS). Since last week, it was Evergreen Pri.

Xiu Han and I were assigned to teach Flash for FTPPS Pri 6 students. It was so unlucky that my first class was 6A, an EM3 class. I am not trying to stero type but the class was quite disappointing. I only have half the class attending my lesson. The most is only 20 of them. Most of them were rowdy. There were even 3 'AhLians' in my class, goodness sake! 2 of them at least show some interest in my lesson and manage to complete their work. The one which i think was the big sister of the 3 couldnt be bothered with me. I refer her as the big sister of the grp as she was more daring, good at talking back to the teachers, showing defiance and wouldnt follow instructions given by any teacher. Actually none of them manage to put everything that i have thought them into good use. Most manage to use 2 types of animation for their flash. FYI, I thought them 4 types of animation; Motion and Shape Tween, Masking, and Motion Guide. Maybe flash was too much for them absorb. They think it is too difficult. Well, i didnt blame them bcoz my first experience with flash was in sec. school. Well, the other class that I taught flash was 6D, an EM2 class. Well compared to 6A, they were definitely much better and everyone of them manage to finish their work. But in their work, they din use all the 4 types of animation, mainly becoz they couldnt remember the steps.

It is through teaching this school that I came to know more about Miss Lisa, a fellow trainer/ colleague of mine from ACP. She is quite an easy going girl and very friendly. No problems working with her at all. At the beginning, whenever we started talking about the company, she will be very careful with her usage of words, fearing that i may be a spy or some1 who might stab her in the back. So i thought it was quite funny. But as days passed, we slowly found out that our thoughts were very much similar or infact the same. Well, i will not go into details regarding the thoughts. This is the time, when we started opening up ourselves, able to talk anything under the sun. lol

Next up was Evergreen. ACP assigned us to teach Basics of the Computer and Touch Typing for Pri 1, MS Words for Pri 2 and Dreamweaver for Pri 5. The schedule here was quite tight. First few days were half days and after that it was full day, morning 8 am to 6pm. But of course, there will be short and long breaks in between. I enjoyed teaching evergreen but it was quite tiring. There was once, the schedule for the day was like this, a lesson from 830am - 10 am. I have a break from 10 am - 1130 am. From 1130am, i have lessons all the way till 6pm. This is crazy man. At the end of the day, i can feel my head was quite heavy. I will be posting up some pics that i have taken for a Pri 2 class which i enjoyed teaching the most compared to the rest. They were very obedient and smart. On their last lesson, I was quite sad that I am not taking them for IT lessons anymore, even thought of them when i reached home. This was the first time that i could not bear to leave a class. Going bonkers man, lol. But i hope everyone will one day be somebody useful to the society when they are out there to work.

Next week, will be my last 2 days teaching IT in Evergreen. Hope there will be an opportunity to go back again. Tc everybody! Hope to meet up you guys if we haven been meeting ;)

HUH!!! not again... -___-''

2007-10-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

i cant believe it man, im scheduled for another medical update on 29 nov. DAMN! If you(CMPB) know i already deferred the originl check up date(somewhere ard late last yr), why so kan chiong schedule me in februrary this year which was still earli. Now i have to update again becoz there is oni a 1 yr validity for the medical report. Really damn sian, must go all the way to redhill again, alone somemore and the whole check up is like 2 hours. Another thing, which cannot really blame you guys, im scheduled for enlistment at such a late date. Man, i should have called earlier mayb even before i start preparing for my final examinations. Now have to wait for months. Was hoping to get dec, or january intake. hai...

tmr gonna be ykun for gym and swimming in the morning, and then meet my little girl in the noon... haven been meetin her due to her mid term tests but lucky her last paper is tmr. tke care everybody, climate changing rapidly. cheers.

2007-10-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

my hp woke me up at 930 this morning. It was a call from my IT manger. He asked if a colleague of his had send me the required documents for this aftn IT lesson at first toa payoh pri. I told him that he did not send. So when i received the course document file from my manager, i then found out that i will have to teach windows movie maker, which im not familiar with. I tried to learn but didnt feel confident as the time given was too short and i could hardly concentrate and absorb whatever that is stated in the help option of the software. Hence, i decide not to work for this course and asked him to help me find replacements. Somehow, i just do not have the confident to teach a software which i have just learnt on my own. Moreover, the form teacher of the class will be in the com lab. But later on, i then found out, actually the software has nothing much to learn... -__-'' Qutie easy to teach too.

Just now cycled to kim san leng to return a rugby ball to arnold's fren. Felt bit shy coz i have been holding on to that ball since year 1 or 2. Back then, i borrowed it from her for my IS module. So you might be thinking why i didnt return the ball back to her when im done with it. Well, we smsed and discussed our schedules to see how can we meet... In the end, we always ended up being busy and then not really convenient to meet up. I just drag and drag and until recently, when arnold called to ask me if i have returned the ball to her. Thats when i contact her again and finally i get to return the ball to her. I can say that she is really polite and patient with me, judging from the way she reply my sms. Think a normal person could have been pissed off by me.

After that i met up with qx and to go ytcc together. Played 5 on 5 for awhile and it started to drizzle. Man it was bored. So we just hang around there playing abc or man jiang for a while, then headed to yt food court to take my dinner. By then, alan just reached in time to join us. After dinner, we went to the void deck under my block to have chat. He is enlisting tomorrow morning.

At this point of time, i am about to go thru another phase of life. Gradually, more of my friends will soon be serving NS and will have lesser time to spend for each other. To all my friends out there, even if we seldom meet up, we will still be as close as before no matter what. Dunno what this entry is for also... abit of here and there. But hope you readers get my point... tc everybuddy!!!

Finally... Back...

2007-10-01T01:32:00.000+08:00

yes... finally im back blogging everybody. I had been absent for nearly 13 months. Quite a lot of things have changed. Im no longer learning guitar, no longer singing song or trying to record a song, no longer play basketball as often, no longer studying as i have finally graduated from ngee ann... And i want to change my BLOGSKIN!!! but the site is down for construction so gotta wait.

Ever since i have finished my last paper, which is IB, have been working part time, playing fm, hanging out with the usual group of frenz, dating feeling, and recently borrowed a Harlen Coben thriller book to read. Shocking right? Havent been reading a story book since i graduated from sec sch. FYI, usually i couldnt manage to finish reading a story book. Now, im have read 50% of the book with 10 days remaining before the book dues. Simply fantastic. I started reading partly becoz i feel bored listening to the songs in my mp3 during the train ride to toa payoh from yew tee. Kevin deployed me to first toa payoh pri sch to teach Kea Coloring Book, which is some kiddy stuff software as you can see from the name of the software. Reading allows me to kill time or perhaps keep me busy. Moreover, the book that i have borrowed is also quite interesting. I think this time round i might stand a chance to finish the book so as to break my personal record which is having finish reading a library book with over 400 pages within the load period. I shall see.

Oh yes, besides all these stuffs that im busy with, i would occasionally pack my room when i had the mood. I think my closet do not have enough space for large amount of clothes. Its really quite messi in there.

Surprisingly during this holiday, i have finally found my long lost pri sch fren or should i say she finally found me. lol Bit shocked and unbelivable. She sent me some pics which were taken during a frens birthday when we were still in pri sch. These pics really bring me all the way back to pri 4. How i wish im still in pri sch, so innocent, playful, naive... Whenever i start to think of my future, enlisting to NS, ORD and enter the workforce, every event will start to happen very fast. Perhaps in a blink of an eye, i might be in my late 20s, getting married or still having a hard time trying to change the no. of digits in my saving account. As i grew older, i start to reflect more on my life and the events that happened around me. I really miss being a little boy.

With love everybody.

first lesson....

2006-09-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

Juz got back an hour ago. Spent my day having my first guitar lesson with my uncle and goin to the IT fair with yq. Well not bad, learnt chords C, F and G. C and F easier to change, G is the more difficult fingering. Also learnt the PIMA thingy. Hmmm, wonder if i could play like the pros out there. Well, everything start from basic. So i guess i muz practise hard at home on my basics. Really hope that the stuffs that my uncle is gonna teach me will be enuff to reach my ideal standard of a guitar player. Playing the melodies of the modern songs so that i could sing along... ZHI TAN ZHI CHANG thats wad i aim to do... lol My left hand gonna ache man... My passion for basketball is realli goin down. Think should be a good thing for me. Competitive basketball is not for those ppl who are short AND small built to play as they are nothing if they are gonna play against bigger sized players. Bit tired, slpt at 3 plus or 4 last nite, so gonna

holidays....

2006-09-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

One week of my sch holiday has juz passed like that. Everyday, I will be juz sitting around at home playing FM. Went out a few times to play ball, to gym, to sing. But guess wad, im taking up my first guitar lessons tmr. Just so happen, i have an uncle who teaches guitar in the past at YAMAHA school. So decided to learn from him. In my life, i think i have wasted alot of time on basketball. So its time to take up some new skills. For this holiday i also wanna visit the gym often with alan. My fitness is getting from bad to worse. I hope to do more sit ups for this holiday for some purposes. Well, I wish that there will be more functions at chijmes so i can earn more money to feed my bank account. I also wanna try writing a song together with my fren for the first time. Dunno how will it turn out.

Man... My life realli has nothing.. Gonna make it more exciting... Hmmm... I aim to train hard for another year and join some singing comp. be it big or small, Juz for the experience. Im not gonna juz laze around or smth. Realli need to get my ass out and do smth abt my life. I need to get back wad i have lost in the past. Only this thing can revitalize me from my boring life. But sadly, i have lost it twice. Finding it and getting it back for the third time might be hard. Juz gonna go all out...

Man i realli do hope i can pass all my modules for last sem. Of all the semesters in NP, this semester is the only one which i have put most of my effort in revising.

oh man, gonna rush off to cc.... tc

challenges....

2006-07-22T03:04:00.000+08:00

Man... i juz got myself into hot soup. Its either im that blur, or unlucky that no one reminded me, or im not attentive during lessons, or im forgetful, or perhaps its juz fated... I din turn up for CMA test 2... Can ya believe it? Never in my 19 yrs of life have i forgotten to sit for a test. I was really stunned and surprised when elyn told me over the phone... At that moment, i was gonna say, u muz be kidding me rite... lol Totally insane... I really cant believe wad i hear. It was on Monday. I got to know about the test at abt 11 plus, which is abt 6 hours after the starting time of the test. -__-' I thought i could save myself by sitting for the re test but i was totally wrong. I was told by my cma tutor that the sch of BA is very strict in this kind of situation. She said that students who didnt sit for the test must have a letter or medical certificate to prove their absence for the test if not, they are not eligible to sit for the re test. My heart really dropped when i heard that. I knew i was in for a big trouble. Well, guess i have no choice but to take a big fat 0 for the paper which has a weigtage of 20%. Hence, i approached my tutor again to ask her help me calculate the score i need to get for my final paper in order to just pass the whole module. Its a 64. Man!!! To me, this score may be within my ability to achieve it, but i need to work quite hard. I dun wish to have an xtra module to clear as 2 is more than enough. Guess i gotta really start working hard. Just nice, i have quit the sch training so there will be more time for me to prepare for this paper. I really hope i wont neglect the other modules... Well, i just have to take this as part of a challenge in my life, which i created unnecessaryly with my own negligence. This really woke me up from weeks of laziness and being very slack.

Shall move on to wad happen during this week.
Monday, i had a one on one presentation for IBS, which is called the sales solution. It was quite successful. Burned midnight oil the night before to prepare it. Its about recommending the right product to a client which is gonna be my tutor, based on the requirements i gathered from her during the data gathering call. At the end, my tutor said that i meet all the requirements and the stuffs that i need to show so i got an A. She also reviewed the grades for other activity assignments to me. I only had 1 B. How i wish these grades were the grades of all my modules. Having only B for 1 module, with the rest being As. Isnt that great? Lol, im dreaming...

Todae i reached school at 905 am to attend a 9 am lesson. When i reached the door of my class, there wasnt anyone in there. I then saw a yellow notice which states, " KMS workshop rescheduled to next week, 21 july. I was -_-''', but cannot blame anyone. I didnt attend ytd's lecture, so i guessed my tutor might have said it during the lecture. Just so unlucky that sam forgotten to remind me, but i wont blame him... Well at least i have something to during the 2 hours. I went to level 5 helpdesk to get my notebook installed with MS SQL server 2005. It was damn long... think it took me 1 hr or more to finish installation the software... Den i went to canteen 2 to wait for wai ming, but i caught xiu han meeting val and having lunch together without informing me. lol... Well, i ended up lunching with both of them instead of ming as he had a sudden change of timing. But i met up with ming after my last lesson which ended at 115 instead of 2pm. On our way to the shell bus stop, i met b2 coincidentally. She laughed at my swollen and wounded shin which left me feeling lost and not knowing how to react... haha very bad lei b2... you should ask b1 if he is feeling better... lol Ha ha a funny girl... Took a nap when i reached home. I got up at 9plus. These few days really quite slpy and tired so no choice... lol

Yawnz... think i shall end here.... shall often update more posts... tc everyone...

lifeless life...

2006-07-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

Im really feeling very lost in my life, as though, i have no more important duties to do in life. Last time, when my passion for basketball is still strong, i will live each day with the dream of playing well and to improve. When I like a girl, i will think of ways to win her heart. When i am schooling, i will try to learn and absorb as much as possible. When im working, i will try to do my tasks well so as not to be scolded by my supervisor. When friends are having problems, i will wanna lend them my listening ears. Now, everything is so different. I am juz 19 this year and already going thru this kind of weird thoughts. Wads really strong with me? Nothing is goin smoothly for me. Man, this is really one of the most difficult stage of my life to go through. The vision of my future seems blur. I realli dun wanna live each day very meaninglessly. On the other hand, i have no mood for everything. Man! Everyday feeling very restless. I cant let this go on. But it seems that it isnt within my ability to change things. I have no strength to carry on. haIz... What made me fell and hit the ground so heart that i seem to lost all my senses...

past and present events update....

2006-07-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

Thailand Trip
Went to TAI GUO for a holiday between 11 June - 14 June. It was my the fast time our family actually sit a plane and fly to a country further than malaysia. Never in my 19 yrs of life have i boarded a plane before until this holiday. Well the experience was quite exciting at first. lol coz SUA KU ma. But slowly boring le. When we reached there, it was hot and humid like what singapore is now. Although the hotel was only 3 star, but its comfortable for me to fall asleep fast and soundly. We decided to shop for the first day. We went to MBK, a famous shopping centre, which is quite similar to our local queensway shopping centre but it is 4 or 5 times bigger. There are many shops in there, selling a wide range of goods. Thailand's ktv is slightly different from Singapore. The ktv rooms are actually telephone booth like. Perhaps in the future if i have earn enough money, i wanna invest a small business in ktv. lol. The 2nd day, we intend to visit the musuem but it wasnt open to the public. A guy there said that its the king's dunno how many years of throne, he invited many kings and princes from other countries for the celebration. So we got no choice but to visit the 3 different buddhas under the hot sun. They are the standing, sitting and slping buddhas. We then immediately headed to the IT centre of bangkok, which is similar to our local Sim Lim Square. We bought dvds, couple of games and a recording software for myself. haha. We then went to another plaza where i bought a pair of jeans for 32 sg bucks i think. The shop assistants are females and they are pretty looking who are around my age or slightly younger than me. After that, we went back to our hotel for some rest and decided to meet at 7 for a visit to the nigh bazaar market. That is the ideal place i am expecting to visit in thailand. It is juz like our bugis street, selling clothes, accessories and bags. The price can be bargained too. I bought 2 ts, a necklace and a pair of thai boxer shorts. We had difiiculty goin back as the roads and expressways are blocked. The reason being is that some VIPs will be using that route. Tats all abt our holiday at thailand.

Was watching the finals of the world cup between italy and france while blogging this post. Wad made the game more interesting and exciting was that i had bet on this game. I bought total goals 2, draw at half and italy and italy as the winner. Well i only won the first bet which is 2 goals. I lost 5 bucks but its better than losing 20 bucks. lol Anyway my motive of betting is juz to excite myself. lol yea and not hoping to earn money out of it. lol Think im gonna stop here. Tke care.

it has been really long to come up with this....

2006-07-05T01:13:00.000+08:00

Well, many wonderful, fun, happy, interesting and happening events took place during my absence here but i shall share with u guys some other days. Haven been feeling positive recently. I think i have been deceiving myself all these years. Should have stop it right after my Os. Should juz play it as a leisure. Shouldnt have set high goals and hoping one day that i can attain them. Should have followed what Carmen said, " basketball is not for short ppl like us to play". Now, i have made my life miserable. One should be enjoying when he is doing smth he loves to do. But im different. I am not enjoying while im doin smth i love to do, instead im stress about it. This thing had also brought disappointment, low self esteem, unhappiness, etc, to me. Now, my love for it has started to decrease. I have finally come up with a decision after so long, which is to give up what i love to do. LAN QIU. Not as in to completely stop playing but juz decided i shouldnt continue to be a clown or be humiliated to carry on trying to play competitively. All this while, i know that i do not foot the bill. I think i shouldnt waste more time in hopin to be selected to play for the sch anymore. I have been quite lucky for my first 2 years. In order words, i already ZHUAN dao le. Anyway i dun even think i stand any chances to be in the final 12 man squad. Although you guys might say, " u never try how u noe???" Well some things can just base on feelings ba. Or perhaps if i dun try, i will not experience any disappointment. Im also quite tired of playing competitive bball all these years. No results to show. I have been quite ugly in front of those ppl who noe me, as in being a fool of myself. I kind of have enough of these bad experiences. I juz wanna thank those who had supported, motivated me, giving me chances, having confidence in me (ShiFu), helping and imparting skills and knowledge of the game all these years. Super appreciate it. You guys are the best!

But I cant really give up totally, as i still gotta try to get into yew tee csc. At least i cannot let my coach down. I dun wan him to noe that im so useless. I hope he will be proud of me some day althoug chances are slim. It was him who brought me to the competitive scene of the game. Without him bringing me into eng tat. I wouldnt be playing outside tournaments like youth cup, skudai, yew cheow tong cup, taman jurong cup and hougang cup. He will always be my only coach and most respectable personel on the court. So no matter what, i still gotta persevere and train with full determination.

Now that i have come up with this decision. My life seems very dull. I do not really have any targets or goals. It really seems meaningless. Simply live for the sake of living. haix... slowly everyone will call me alvin instead of xiao si....

New Hopes!!!

2006-05-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yawnz.. gotta slp after this post so i shall make it quite short.

Today, Ngee Ann held its first selection trials. I was really surprised to see soo many ppl turning up. I think the total number of ppl there was more than 50. Actually, this year will be the real test for me, to see if im really up to the standard to play IVP. There are quite alot of good players from yr 1. My place in the 12 man squad is obviously not secured. I shall juz put my fingers crossed and train hard. But at the same time, i wouldnt be surprise if im not selected as there are quite a few good players playing the same position as me. This yr will be tough for me as i have to juggle my sch stuffs together with school and club trainings. I really hope i will be able to manage my time wisely. So many things i wanna do. Wanna gym, train my legs, tanning, study hard, perform well in basketball. Man! How can i do all these at the same time. I shall just hope everything goes smoothly for me.

After the selection, i took my dinner at lot 1 foodcourt together with kun and his friends. Kian hao also tag along as we are goin to the same destination. KH's gf met KH at the cck interchange and she too, join us for dinner too. Saw them together like quite sweet and blissful. Quite jealous sia... Haha but not that those kind of jealousy on the bad side. Of course when a fren is happy in a relationship i will also be happy for him. The best is thing is not to rush into a relationship, it will be better and special if it happens naturally at a slow pace. There are advantages and disadvantages to be attached so for those who are really desperate to get attached or fall in love, think twice. Dont get into a relationship for the sake of having bf or gf, or juz to be loved by someone. Well the best thing is to let nature take its course, it will help u to save alot of trouble and u can also live a better life. For me, i will juz leave fate to do the rest. I dunno why, but i have alr lost the perseverance or the will to go all out and try my best to win a girl's heart. Mayb bcoz, i believed that if the girl is really mine, we will be together no matter what happens. If she isnt mine, no matter how hard i try to win her heart, i will never succeed. So perhaps thats the reason. Sometimes, u try very hard to win a girl's heart, it may turn out to be a disaster, as in the girl might feel irritated or annoyed. Or when u successfully won her heart after a long period of courtship, u felt that she isnt the one for u, u will be even depressed. I think its best to understand the person's personality first.. yea

TTs all for todae, tke care!

MIA for months.... back for good!!!

2006-05-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

Really got so much to say... but i shall juz summarize...

Firstly, I just completed my attachment during my last school break. It was quite sad and happy on my side. The company really has a stressful working environment but the people there are nice. In life, u seldom get something perfect. So i really heaved a sigh during my last day in that company but at the same time, couldnt bear to leave the people there. Although i dun enjoy working there, but i love working together with my UOB Team man!!!! ( part of it is also due to me making my life and some of them there to be enjoyable, haha) Now missing the fun and stressful times we went through together. But i know that each of us has our different routes in life, that is why i am truely glad that at this point in our lives, we all met... Never gonna forget all of you. Becoz i met some of them, i have learnt new things abt life. Thanks alot. My manager also has a good heart. He has gained the respect he deserved from our team although we cannot compare our noise level at work to prove it. I really hope that all of you guys will have a good life in the future ahead.

Secondly, hmmm probably tok abt my studies. Well for the first time in my life in ngee ann, i have successfully passed all the modules in a semester. Isnt that great??? Well i think u guys will juz SIGH!!!! But to me its really an achievement bcoz i have been super lazy for the first 2 yrs. I have decided to buck up in my studies now. Although its really late ( gonna stay back for another semester to clear 2 pending modules), but i hope i can study hard and improve my GPA for the semesters to come. I juz wanna be hardworking before i leave this school.

Thirdly, i finally get to taste some of the best durian in sg. YUM! There was one nite when qi xiang, val, ming, han, alan and I decided to visit geylang. Dun get the wrong idea dudes, obviously is not to find a prostitute. We went there to give our taste buds a treat with the delicacies of geylang. We ate the famous frog porridge, finger licking DOU JIANG YOU TIAO and king of fruits, durian. I do not really know how to differentiate a good and a bad tasting frog porridge. I assume that it is really nice bcoz there are alot of ppl eating over there. I think its nice though. The dou jiang you tiao is the best la. Dou jiang tastes good, you tiao LAGGI BEST! It is really crispy man. Not oni love to eat it, but love to sing it as well. DOU JIANG LI BU KAI YOU TIAO, RANG WO AI NI AI DAO LAO.... etc. Lastly, the durian, it is really soft and tender. When u eat it, the flesh sort of melts abit and easily becomes a paste. So its really delicious. Thats why they say, when u go geylang, muz try their durian. No regrets!

Fourth, this year i get to play in yeo cheow tong cup again. This time is teaming up with those veterans like ah lai, centre fai do, han li jun, etc... Hope to learn more match experience with them. Haven really improved in my basketball. I dun wish to stuck at this level as it is still considered lousy to me. But i think i also cant hope for any progress as i didnt really put in any hardwork in it. I shall try to take out some time for basketball instead of juz playing at cc.

Fifth, Im going to JJ concert!!!! I have been waiting for quite some time le. Finally he is opening one. Im goin with a fren of mine. Hope i will have as much fun as possible. I chose the section which is at the side of the indoor stadium as i can get a better view of him compared to other seats under the price 108. 128 has already sold out for that section. Should have bought the tics earlier. But im still quite satisfied.

Well, tahts all for todae, tmr i have no lessons in sch as all of them are e learning. YEA! gotta go back to efusion to collect my pay... tke care everyone!

shagged!!!

2006-02-25T16:47:00.000+08:00

This was one of those tiring days that i have gone through before. Studied for macro test 2 days ago till 2am. I think i was quite tensed and worried for the test as i haven finish studying my bsd, which was starting 3 hrs after my macro paper. I lied on my bed, tossing around for 2 hrs. Looking at the clock showing 4 am, im still quite awake. Insane, im gonna wake up at 6 am. 2 hrs of slp, 2 papers to sit, madness. I personally think that i wont be able to get a good grade for the paper, but think there shouldnt be a problem passing it. Met up with han again to study bsd. Finding hard to concentrate as im already half dead and anxious for the test. In the end, i think the paper is rather easy, it all lies in me, whether i have realli studied for it. Wasted, i am just goin to keep my fingers crossed, hoping that my first test and project scores can help pull up my final grade for this module. I realli wan a clean sheet this semester. I want to end my last year without any failed modules and graduate with the people in the same year as me.

The most difficult day to spend every year is the date 24 feb. Though it should be a special day to me, but i somehow juz find it weird and hard to go through it. Well, i went to watch the match between aes and jurong after my paper with han. They won by 11 at the end. It was not a bad match though, with jurong trying to catch up with aes in most of the quarters. After that, went to eat with han. We had durian after that. Bought a cheap box of durian at 2 bucks. We really chose the wrong one. I still prefer the one which i ate with DONG. haa thats nice... But its still fine. Later went to slack with dong they all at mac and later at lot 1 food court. I was feeling very weak already and deciding to leave for home but i was thinking that its better to wait for dong. So in the end, we head back to the food court. Slacked for a while and suddenly, they came up with a small personal sized chocolate cake from breadtalk. We also took some pics using dnise's digi cam.. Quite fun... haa den after that headed home. Mum smsed me wishing me happi birthday, quite touched as this is the first time.. haa Dad bought a durian cake. Its very tasty. Thanks. Initially was thinking of spending the day myself, going home after my papers to rest and den study. But well i think its quite wonderful after all. Though its not any big celebration, but to me, a simple one can already make me feel touched. Yea and im still expecting a cheesecake which has yet to be done. lol I have also received quite a few smses from my friends and also from unexpected ones. Yea thanks alot... Nice of u guys... ;) And a earli special phone call from a good pal... Lol realli unexpected too... yea Later in the nite, went out to cycle with my grp of cycling pals. Yea quite fun... returned back at 3 plus and finally able to slp... thats all for todae... tke care...

boring sundae!!!!

2006-02-19T16:48:00.000+08:00

24 woken up by my bro this mornin.. he told me that the nba slamdunk comp was coming up nxt... so i've got no choice but to pull myself up lazily from my bed... i think the main reason i wanna watch this is juz to witness the high flyer, Nate Robinson, to defy gravity... Man! he is juz sooo insane.... I watched his vert.. it was totally incredible.. A guy standing at 5'9(176cm), can do more than juz a normal dunk on a NBA ring. After that, i was again in a boring state. Too tired to start my revision, so i juz played fm for a while and den ate lunch, chat a little and took a short nap. Later i will shoot ball at cc with ming... i hope i can start revising tonite... tmr is the all star game, cant wait to watch it... I wanna have a recap on what i wanna achieve in life currently; I want to study hard for my comin exam to ensure a clean sheet this sem, I want to gym hard too so as to be physicall fit and strong and lastly, i want to train hard and acheive something in basketball. The last 2 WANS will be slightly hard. I need a gym partner to motivate and to assist me. I think perhaps i will go back to eng tat for training after their tourney. Training in ngee ann is abit waste of time as i dun get to learn anything. Instead juz playing with all i can infront of the coach. This wont have any improvement in my skills. Think it will be wise to go back training with the big guys, at least i can learn some stuffs, but thats provided if that 'old- fashion' coach is willing to me down to play alongside with them during our training. I really hope so. If possible, i aim to be part of the A div team juz before my enlistment to NS. I think it can be done if i put in my 101%... Shall see how everything goes... Wish me lucks and support me, my frenz... Tke care!!!

SchLibrary....

2006-02-14T14:46:00.000+08:00

Yea, now im in the sch library. My next lesson is at 3 pm. Yawnz.. Been quite boring these few days.. Nth much happened. Me and quite a lot of friends went to sentosa last saturday. Quite fun. Luckily val brought along his soccer ball and xi hong brought his freeze bie... But not mani ppl at the beach. A bunch of rugby guys invited us to play a game with them. We thought it was a good idea so agreed. Quite enjoyed the game as we tied 4-4 with them. After a tiring day at sentosa, ming, val, han and me met up with carmen. It was sort of a farewell meeting for her as she is goin off to australia to further her studies. Man! I wonder if i will be deeply affected by this... GOtta go... tke care every1...

Long Break From Blogging....

2006-02-03T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hi there, Xiao Si is back! This time, i hope i can realli write a long one. Coz during this break, many things really happen. But i wonder if i can remember every single thing in detail. I shall try my best.. Ok, i shall categorize them under friends, studies, relationship and basketball as they made up the world im living.

Frenz.... well i have made a new friend, but i think its more than that. Its a she. U guys will be curious who is she rite? Well, u cant see her here in sg as she lives in Germany. Wonder how i got to noe her? Its through a forum, which she had placed her msn contact under her information. So i went to add her and we started chatting. After a few weeks of chatting, i find her quite cute, kind hearted, has her own unique characteristic which i still unable to figure out. She is my first foreign friend, something like penpal, haa... COOL MAN!

Recently juz meet up an old friend, although we are not really that old, but can be considered and old pal bcoz we dun usually contact and meet up. We have known each other for 3 years. Well bcoz of some things that happen which further the distance between us. But i guess everything was over and im glad to still able to see and talk to this friend. Think i have been childish in the past. Wasnt matured to handle this kind of stuff, which resulted me to start being hostile towards you. Really regret it. Its realli nice to see you again, as though we have been transfered back to the past. This kind of feeling really is beyong description. Although we didnt did much things that day, but i truely enjoyed myself every sec. Thanks!

Though i have made a new friend, that doesnt mean that i have alot of friends. Well I still find that my friends seems to be getting lesser and lesser. Just the feeling, though i have heard ppl saying, 1 true friend is all you need. Well its true, but i seem to have the feeling that i have been living this world all by myself. Perhaps something is wrong with my personality or my character. Dear friends, if i have offended you or make you feel unhappy in any way, pls forgive. As friends are very important to me, i will try my best within my limits to be as good as possible. Some times i know that i have the habit of being late, forgetful and undecisive, so hope u guys will be forgiving. I will try to improve, to become a better friend.

I wanna give thanks to all my friends out there, be it whether we are close or not, i just hope that this new yr will be a better one for all of us.

Studies.... Hmmm, wad can i say, im lucky to pass all my common tests. Phew! Gonna work hard for the final year as i already promised myself to keep a clean sheet for this sem. Dun wanna repeat anything as i have 2 pending modules waiting for me. I juz gotta keep motivatiing myself. Oh ya, i forgot to mention my TT02 mates. They are really wonderful friends and souls man! Best! Wont be able to forget them! thanks for all the support and encouragement.

Relationship... well there isnt anything abt bgr as im single. I think i should give up every single chance and opportunity if there is, to be back together with you, I think perhaps i really should move on as I was given a chance before. Think it will be ridiculous if i were to ask for another one. Although u may be having difficulties in communicating with the current one, juz try to hold on k? Im sure u will marry a very good husband who is or close to ur ideal guy. But dun ever doubt, I will surely be by your side if ya need me ;) You are also one of my best friends.

On the other hand, I was also keeping my options open but still there isnt any. I was quite interested with the girl from my macro class but i think she doesnt show any interest in me so i think its hard too. There is this girl who plays for NYP basketball team. Just know that her name is called PEI LING. I find her quite attractive but too bad heard from yun yun that she alr had a bf. So I did not do any actions. But the weird thing is yun yun told me that NYP players are toking abt me getting her number. I wonder who started this rumour... Hmmm perhaps thats the wonderful and weirdest part abt rumour. I hope she will help me XI TUO ZUI MING.

Lastly Basketball.... Well, have juz finished playing for NP in the IVP games. The whole tournament i think i din really play much other than the final match against NTU. Perhaps Heng really have no confidence in me base on my performance at last yr's IVP. I should not blame him too. Last yr, i played with no confidence in me. Was nervous on court and couldnt show wad i can do. Actually, during the first game, was benched for the entire game and was substituted in during the dying moments of the game which i think is less than 2 mins. I was totally demoralised. Becoz i sort of put my heart and soul to this team as i will not be playing for engtat in the near future. But luckily, i played quite alot during the last game and it is realli critical in helping me to decide if i should continue playing competitive basketball. I should say its one of those few competitive matches that i played in my life which i felt that i was myself. So this will be my stepping stone to the next level, which is playing with confidence on court. This game is totally different from the others as our opponent consists of a top rated national player and other very good players. Hence, i decided to gamble and give myself another chance to start all over again. I will try to visit the gym as regular as possible. Practise my personal stuffs when i have the time.

Thats all from me FOLKS, tke care!!!

Boredism....

2005-11-06T12:37:00.000+08:00

yawnz... haven realli done much this holidays. I was working at the the start of the 2nd week of holidays as a starhub telemarketer and got myself sacked after 2 weeks. The reason : Not producing expected sales. I juz gotta say mayb im not good at persuading skills are not good enough. Or rather my words arent convincing enough i guess. Wasted, it was quite a relaxing job after all, sitting down there, given leads to call up the residents, tell them more abt the promotions, good pay with $8/per hr if u worked for abt 1 month, if not $7/per hr who left within a month. Not bad after all. The only problem is that u got to worry about the number of sales u have made... After this job, i found myself staying at home most of the time throughout the remaing days before my school reopens. Basically just playing basketball, singing k box and going out a couple of times, that's all. Still dun really have the study mood. Think mayb its time to start packing my table. Perhaps the mood will come naturally. Played ball with ming last night with ming at ytcc, in the absence of val, han and alan. Thought it will be quite sian as nowadays, the court doesnt have much people other than the regulars. Initially, dun realli feel like goin. But in the end, kun told me that there are people playing at both sides of the court. So in the end, i decided to go down. Took the car along with ming and his parents. When i went in, her mum was listening to jay's hei se you mo, quite surprised. ha ha. When we reached cc, there are realli quite a number of ppl playing. But also bit sianx coz most are familiar faces. Got to team up with ming, aaron and eunos. Well it was quite fun at the end of the day. Enjoyed playing. Really didnt waste my time goin down. Today, gonna stay at home like wad ive said earlier on. Pack up my room. Most imptly, slp at 10. Coz tmr's gonna be a long day for me. lessons from 8-5. -__-'' madness. tke care everyone...

I feel GOOD!!!

2005-10-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

Todae will be a good day to blog. Why? The reason is very simple. I'm in quite a good mood. Its been quite long since i felt this good at the end of the day.

Yesterday....
I went singing with my frenz at jurong kbox. Reached there at 11.05am. We took the K lunch package. Indeed, it was still the same, juz like the last time me and blader went to sing, the same old 3 choice of food. They are delifrance, laksa and chicken rice. -__-'' Quite fun in there. But the most important thing i want to highlight is that, its realli very cold in there. Man!!! I was shivering. The next time i go there, i make sure i bring along something to keep me warm. Well, after that, we went long john to eat and parted after the meal as Im gonna meet alan and xiu han at jurong mrt station. We are heading towards city hall, where padang is situated at. We are workin in a charity event organised by the stock exchange holdings. This 'lobang' was from Alan sister boyfriend's friend. This job is realli slack and high paid. Alan, Val, Xiu Han and I were in charged of the baggage counter. Our jobs are to look after the runner's belongings. Its as simple and easy as it sounds. We are paid 50 bucks, working from 4-9 pm. $10/per hr. Where to get this kind of job? If i have this kind of job everyday. I dun think i need to continue my studies in Ngee Ann. After working, we went to suntec food court to take our dinner.

Todae...
Didnt realli do much todae... I juz went down to ytcc to play ball as a fren told me he will be going down. It has been many months since the last time we played together in ytcc. My performance was rather good. Made a few important shots to bring my team back into the game. ZhengYang net a few 3s too. I think we played quite ok. We won a few teams before taking a seat at the sidelines. I felt quite happy and really enjoyed. This is the good feeling I was talking about. Realli, it has been very long since i felt like this. I FEEL GOOD!!!
tke care everyone...

??????

2005-10-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

Dunno wad title to put so i juz put question marks. Well, shall update wad i have been doin from fridae till now.

Friday.....
Didnt go down to play ball at cc coz heard wenfa saying the other day that they are training alittle for the upcoming skudai cup, so it will be meaningless to go down bahz. Realli having this feeling that i dun realli belong to the club le ba. With no upcoming competitions for me, A div still abit far away, inter-constituency too... Perhaps i can juz play ball for the fun of it bahz. Sometimes i juz enjoy the pressure-free feeling. So basically todae, i was actually at home doin nth, then out of a sudden xi hong smsed me that his house no one, asked me if i wanna go over for some ktv session. Lol.. I was thinking not a bad idea. At first was feeling tired and reluctant to go, but i also dun wanna reject his kind offer as this time round, there's no one in his hm. So i arrived his hse at abt 3pm. Brought my small collection of ktv discs. We sang together, quite fun la.. It den started raining. Its a bad sign as i brought along my bball attire. Last nite my fren and i alr agreed to play ball at teck whye lrt court together with another 2 at 7 pm. So went in msn to confirm with her... In the end, lucky the weather was fine again. So everything was smooth. So went to the bus stop to meet her and walk to the court. Played quite happily, fun, though we lost every match... Lol, but most imptly must enjoy. I felt quite carefree while playing, very enjoyable. thnx pal... Back home, i chat on msn till 4 plus. Quite tiring actually but was fun. Was using the video conversation, very fun indeed.

Saturday...
Was thinking whether should i go down to cc to play ball as i was havin a sore throat and im still feeling tired as i slpt very late the previous nite. Becca woked me up with an aftn call at 1 plus, was still in bed before tt. Picked up the call, still semi- conscious i think. She asked if i wanna play ball at cc, i heard as goin k box... lol i think im realli mad over singing liao. I told her i sms her again as i juz woke up. Tried getting back to slp but to no avail. Im tired but i cant slp. -__-''
Wai Ming msged me in msn asking if im goin cc not, told him i cant confirm. In the end, i decided to make my way to cc as i felt like playing ball. Reached there and sat on the bench. Later played a team with dong and gang. Afterwards smth juz happen and i found myself at new court. At first i was juz shooting ball, but slowly there were more ppl coming to play. So we decided to form teams and played. I enjoyed playing. Same, i felt very carefree, enjoyable and happy.

Sunday...
Todae, basically i juz watched vcd and chatting in msn the whole dae. It was raining cats and dogs outside so even if i tot of goin out, also bit troublesome. Tmr gonna go gym with xi hong.

Tke care everyone....

is SLPIN very difficult?

2005-10-14T09:12:00.000+08:00

yawnz... Wanna slp also cannot... -__-'' perhaps im not slpy and tired enuff to get into slp... haa wad a theory.. well haven been blogging for days so gotta update the readers here on my life in this short period of time. I shall start off with ......

Saturday....
Woke up earli at abt 8 plus for work at 11pm. Met up with Xi hong to take our breakfast at a coffee shop near our workplace. After tt we proceed to our office to start work. But didnt expect it is a wasted trip. When we reached the office, our supervisor wanted to see the both of us. So we sat down in our office with our colleagues to wait for her. When she came back, she asked the both of us to follow her outside of the office to talk. She told me tt she was aware tt im still stuck with only 1 sale. She asked what are the difficulties i faced and why couldnt i close those potential sales. So i told her that mayb im weak in persuading others to sign up lo. I am also aware that its quite hard for her too, as the her bosses want results. Hence, she asked if i could give her any sales tt day, if cant den she wont put me down to work le, in other words, SACKED ON THE SPOT. lol So i shooked my head. She then asked Hong if he wanted to continue working even when Im not, as he was with 2 sales and was able to continue work. He told her that he didnt want to continue working le. Not bad, he also got yi qi, but i dun mean if he continues working, he dun have yi qi la.. haa Im understanding de ok. Yea so basically, it was a wasted trip tt day. My supervisor could have called us earlier to inform or talk to us. Not as though we live near Bugis. Actualli also dont realli like her, the way she handle things. She knows shes gonna put an end to my job, still can wait for us to come down, made us think that it will be our last day for work, but actually wanna work last day also cant, went all the way to bugis to be dismissed by her. She is also an adult so i expect a better decision made by her. At least, allow me to continue working my last 6 hrs. After that, both of us went to walk for a while in bugis den later headed to town. We then decided to go kbox sing. Haa quite fun though, sing till abit no voice. At the end of the Kbox session, Xi Hong will perform an Ah Du's HELLO infront of me... haa realli funny.. after tt, took bus home to change into my bball attire. Carmen asked me down as she was free i think. Actually dun intend to play basketball games liao, but very long din play with her le so got no choice. Well, tt day played quite happily bahz, though han, alan, val and ming werent there. Wan mei, prisc, jas were there too. Yong KUn jiu lai yi ge, todae ma jiam gathering.. haa nice wan.. haix, though cc now still got ppl to play with, but its not the same as before. Things have also changed. Hmmm....

Monday.....
woke up earli to attend smth in school at 10. When i reached there, actually, its like a trial of online enrolment program which means tt im the chose guinea pigs, there are also a few other students with special cases like repeated modules. yea.. Din realli noe wads goin on, if i knew that it was this kind of thing, i wouldnt have go. Waste my time, haix. After tt, i juz borrowed a ball to shoot in the sch's half court for a while and headed back home. Spend my noon chatting in msn and den decided to go down to cc to play ball in the evening. YA, i couldnt controll myself, still got the ego to play ball. Went down played half court for while den started playing 5 on 5. Dunno why, suddenly got this feeling tat i got form to jump, so attempt one time. Felt that, i jumped slightly higher. After some teaching of concepts of dunking by kun and pang, i tried a few times on my own, without the aid of anyone. Ball went in, but touch the board den went in. -__-'' another one is hit behind the ring. But at least now can the motion of my hand is downards and not the usual throwing of the ball den pull the ring. But in return of this improvement, i've got myself tendon probs. After my attempts, I began to feel slight pains on my right tendon. Finally, it had come. Hope this small injury wont stop me from playing.

Tues....
This day is like a meet up. I met up with qiang and accompanied him to walk in bugis to buy smth. After tt, we met up with li yu, becca and tPIN at long john. When i reached CCk, my mum smsed me asking if i wanna join her for dinner, initially i rejected her by telling her im eating with my frenz. Then later after much thought, i decided to went up to look for my mum and join her for dinner as she was alone. Dunno why, but i am starting to noe how to treat my mum better. I noe the feeling of loneliness, dining outside alone. So i felt rather guilty and decided to accompany her. After that, i went down to long john to find the others. Chatted for a while and den went to Kbox to sing... Li Yu, not bad sia ;)... Din expect to sing BEI FENG CHUI GUO DE XIA TIAN so fast with a girl. Its one of the many songs i like. Tpin also can sing lei.. Sing a few solos (applaud)... Becca also rapper... Qiang, as usual la, dun need to say much. Alwayz make my jaws wide open and look at him in amazement. lol Enjoyed tt nite with them... Sang the 7-3 package... tiring but memorable nite. ;)

Wed...
Went down to BP to play with blader, well enjoyed playing with him. As usual, he is still netting those 2s and 3s. Gd job!

Todae...
actually intend to go down cc, but its raining now... so got nth to do but to blog and chat and play FM.. boring dae for me...

tke care everyone...

XIAN SHI DE SHI JIE..... -__-

2005-10-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

I remember coach kept telling us, this is realli a real world, very realistic. In basketball, u muz have size and height, if not ure gonna lose out. Think it applies to everything bahz. And now, i have some pressures from my job. 8 bucks per hr for a telemarketeer. Sounds great? How i wish... Now the supervisor is stressing on the sale we are making. Worse still, she or the department had came up with this per hr sales. Meaning, it will calculate how mani hrs u will need to close a sale. She juz told us todae tt she ever dimiss her employees who dun meet the minimum requirements. Realli abit sianx liao. Its as though we are not working hard to make the calls. Todae i made a career high of 79 calls. -__-'' Some of them realli not interested, or dun have com, or seldom at home, or seldom use internet. I have alr done the presentation liao, they dun wanna sign up also no choice. In my pt of view, this type of thing realli need alot of luck. For ex, juz so happen i call this person who is alr thinking of signing up or is unsure whether to sign up or interested to noe abt the promotions. Argh...

Worse still, i spoke to a girl older than me by 1 yr juz now, explained most of the infos regarding the promotion. In the end, she said that she will discuss it with her parents and den if she realli decide to sign up, she will sign up from her fren. -__-' her fren also working for starhub telemarketing. Dunno why i lose my patience or wad but i juz felt so pissed with her after i hung up. If i dun get my 2nd sale by this week, perhaps i will be sacked or sent to the training class again. Ridiculous...

Dunno wads wrongwith everything. Nth goes rite. I realli hate myself...

Well todae at interchange saw this old pal of mine. Was quite glad to see him but also rather disappointed too. He had changed quite alot though i dun noe wad realli happen tt result in this change. He came so stranger to me. I still can remembered the happi times we had in class. Joking ard, sharing probs, helping one another in our studies, playing ball together... Some times its quite sad to experience this kind of situation. Hes a nice fren but i think i have lost him. I think in this world, one of the most fearful factor to me is being lonely. I dunno wad i have done in my life that im proud of. At least i noe when im realli down or lost perhaps there will be one or 2 fren who will be there for me, at least to hear my troubles.

Recently i also dunno wad realli happen, but i juz felt that i might be having some communications break down with a fren whom i tot hes my close fren. I think mayb our characters are too different.

I wonder, then, if i hold on to it, if im matured enuff to think, will i end up in this terrible state. At least i noe, when im lost, she will be the first to guide me. When im sad, she'll be the first to cheer me up. When im happi, she'll be the first person i share with. When im lonely, she shall be the one to keep me company. But too bad....

ITS A REAL WORLD AFTER ALL.........................

think its time.....

2005-10-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

after much considerations and thoughts, ive decided to temporary stop playing basketball. Perhaps the most is juz practise my shooting and school trainings. I think im juz deceiving myself everytime when i step into the court. In my mind, I kept telling myself '' u can do it. Though ure short, but u can jump, help ur team grab some rebounds. Ure sharp in ur shooting, can help ur team to net a few shots. Ure quite swift in ur penetrate, can help to score some baskets or create open space for ur team mates. U can apply those defensive techniques that u have learnt in eng tat and apply them in ur games. '' Its really time for me to reflect on my progress and performance in this fav. game of mine for the past 5 yrs. I shall continue my gym trainings, come up with a daily mass and fat gaining meal schedule... I dunno if this will work out. But at least i noe, for this fav. game of mine, im willing to try my best and sacrifice anything if i have to, to achieve my target. Think i need some breather too. Time to stop entering into the playing court, which includes the thurs and sats at ytcc and eng tat 5 on 5. But this will happen oni after tmr's 3 on 3. lol hope i can leave happily by performing well in this small competition in ntu. Got another chance to play alongside han and val. Too bad we are playing under the opens category, so wont expect us to play very far. if we realli lose, i juz hope we can still have fun and enjoy tmr. This will be my so called last ''game''. To be continued......

SHAQ!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-29T15:32:00.000+08:00

Todae.. Went for the Starhub telemarketing training. Totally shagged after abt 6 hrs of briefing on wad will we be doing and the sales we are doin.. Man, juz so tiring. Sitting down there for 6 hrs, listening and taking some notes. It is realli 3 times of my sch lecture... I can hardly sit still in my sch's 2 hr lecture.. Wads more, 6 hrs lecture gonna be hell... I was fidgeting all abt (dunno if i get the rite spelling). I think tts all for todae, realli shag and slpy... tke care...

Job HUNT successful!!!!!!

2005-09-23T15:27:00.000+08:00

Ytd, i was out the whole dae with a guy. Na, dun think too much, im not gay la! I was out with Xi Hong. We went for the starhub job. The place wasnt hard to find after all as it was situated near bugis junction, called North Bridge Centre, which is juz opposite of the national library. When we reached there, there were already quite a number of teens seated among themselves, waiting for the interview to start. We werent late either, so we sat down and wait patiently. Finally the lady who contacted me abt the interview arrived and the interview started 230 sharp. It was only at the midst of the interview or briefing, that i found out this job was actually a telemarketing job. I thought it was the roadshows type. But it was not bad after all. Got table and chair for u to seat. Telephone for u to 'chat' with customers and do sales. Not forgetting to mention, working in an air-conditioned environment. 'More' better than the roadshow. Ha ha. The pay was like 8 per hrs. Great! But the bad thing abt this job is that I only work 3 hrs per week day. 7pm - 10pm from Monday -Friday, 11am - 6pm on Saturday. The estimated salary i will earn is abt 500 plus. Now it will be a headache for me as im gonna plan wad to do in the day, juz before my work. Cannot be everyday go gym or go GAI GAI. Nvm, i shall think abt this later. After working this job, if i were to buy a MTB bike, the money left over is juz enuff for me to buy some clothes. I still gotta buy my w800i, the sonyEricsson walkman Hp. Perhaps im muz start considering working even after sch reopens. I shall see hows the work like. After the interview which ends at abt 2.50pm, we decided to take 61 back to Bt Timah to eat and play some pool. Din realli expect the journey to take us abt 1hr 10 mins. Madness! Can u believe it. My butts were aching. But i did take a short nap in the bus. We then went home straight after pool which was at abt 615. Xi hong gotta go his godmum to help out on typing out the selected qns for primary sch papers. Wad abt me? Rush home to get change and cycle to cc to play ball for a while. At least ytd i din spent the whole day at home. Phew!

Todae... It was raining the whole aftn. So yea, i was at home. But guess wad, not playing games or watching tv. Im surfing the net on the history of China. Dun believe rite? lol To prove to u guys, the last dynasty that ended was Qing Dynasty. Well i found out some stuffs which stated in the show, My Date With a Vampire 3, was true. There is really this thing called PANG GU. Its said to be the creator of heaven, earth and hell. Wonder its true or not, coz from wad i noe, isnt jesus the creator of everything? Mankind, trees, animals? weird. Ok nvm, continue with my things. There is realli a guy named Fu Xi in the past, who was really the one who shot the 9 suns down with his arrow, as he was a great archer. Moreover, he was related to Chang E. In the show, his name was Ren Wang Fu Xi. The character NU WA isnt fake at all. In the history of China, there is realli a lady named Nu Wa who was more like a God of Marriage. I find the history of China quite interesting. Mayb u guys should read up on it during ur free time. Later, i went down to cc at abt 7pm. Reached there juz in time to play next team coz Alan invited me to help play in his team. Was kin d of lucky coz i was still afraid i wont be playing much as i gotta leave at 8, to catch my fav. idol on tv in Jacky Wu's Tian Cai Xiang Qiang Cong. There is a part where the programme will invite singers to sing a few songs with a slightly changed lyrics. Yea. Well, my idol is Lin JJ. He sang his Jiang Nan and 2 of David Tao's songs... Was quite fun. Yes indeed, his vocal realli... Only one word can describe, WHOAH! I think i started idolising him ever since i attended free admission to his YING YUE CHUANG ZUO FEN XIANG HUI, organised by our sch. Listened him sing live on stage. FABULOUS. Anyway, the nxt episode will have DONG LI HUO CHE singing. Yea man, they are also singers whom i respect. Their vocals are realli GOOD. The notes they can hit seem endless to me.. I dun think i can sing their song.

Well thats all for todae, take care everyBUDDY..

Meaningless day...

2005-09-21T13:23:00.000+08:00

wasted my whole day at home... watching vampire 3 vcd.. BORIN.. If the rest of my life is gonna be like this, i'd rather end it todae.. Feel so meaningless to pass such days by doin nth. Juz like living a life aimlessly. Dull and cold world. Im gonna go interview tmr at 230. Think its those kind of starhub thing. But i think the pay quite gd which is stated in the papers at 6-8 bucks per hr.. Guess most probably gotta go on my own le. Hope this will be successful, at least i can work everyday, will not be afraid of doin nth.. Can earn money to buy the things i wanna buy. Actually i kind of like the vampire show, all 3 series of them. WHile watching, i will always think of alot of things. KE SHUO SHI KAN DE JING JING YOU WEI. It is thru this show, i also learn quite a few meaningful sayings on the perceptions of life. Not forgetting to mention the love stories in it, the vampire battles, etc... haix somehow, i think my life is starting to have a slight change. Its environment, people.. Even myself, juz feel that i have change a little in the way i look at things, i feel, i react... So weird. Dunno why but i juz feel that im not as happy as compared in the past, not as cheerful as i am in the past, smth is missing.. hmmm -__-

SiaNsAtion!!!!

2005-09-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

Yea, realli sianx. Thought after exam le, i can finally take a break from the books and notes. But little did i expect, the way of relaxing is nothing to do, no programmes and rot...

Fridae was my last paper. Tot got activities perhaps like goin out with my tto2 mates, but little did i expect in the end, it was oni me and albert singing together in kbox... haa wad a joke. Before that, Bert me and Kim were lunching at AL dunno wad, the malay food stall nearer to the bus stop. Den later kim muz meet his fren so he left first. BErt and me still not sure if we were goin to sing so we decided to play pool first.. Made ur way to beautyworld to play as poolfactor was still not opened at abt 1... Kind of like the place at beauty world as i think the pool and billard balls, tables and cues are quite gd condition, at least better than k pool and pool factor... after playing, as bert realli wanna sing, we decided to head towards jurong entertainment centre's k box... was quite fun in there, though oni 2 of us, but we fooled ard ha ha... as usual hes rapping away.. realli good sial.. after tt we parted as we lived in different places... I was totally shagged as i slp oni a few hrs the day before...

Saturday.... Actualli din realli hav programme ytd but earli mornin saw xiu han online so an idea struck me. Go val's hse to suntan...!!! yea so i ask han if he wans or not which he agreed.. so i called up val and he was still slpin.. he agreed too so it was smooth.. At least gt smth to do, better than to stay at home rot and play games. -__-' later on, we intended to visit the gym but val and ming decided to play ball at cc.. han was on duty at toa payoh.. haa yea. Enjoyed playing last nite...

Sunday.... So todae, me, val and han decided to visit the gym at gombak.. arrived late... din realli do much as i hav no idea why i've gt no strength to do my usual 30 kg weight lift...sehz... after that we went to eat and parted as han was goin val's hse.. quite a borin dae actualli.. haix now my goal is the hunt for a job liao, no much time to waste. will wake up tmr at 745
go dwn buy straits time... hope tmr there will be quite a few to choose.. coz i realli need money, to buy a new bike, perhaps new clothes and weight gainers.. yea gotta visit the gym often. My nxt visit wil be on wed... yea

quickBlog....

2005-09-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

yea, gotta do a quick blog as channel U ghost show will start in abt 5 mins time. Todae was realli shag!!!! ytd nite slpt at abt 3. TOdae went to sch at 6 to take my Law final paper. Everything was not rite, messed up man!!!! Gonna fail this paper for sure, looking at the content itself u will noe le. The amount of words i write, the relevant pts... -__-' Now, i can onli pray hard that my proj. marks and test 1 will help pull up the overall marks and make me pass this module. This module isnt realli easy as there are alot of things to memorise. I realli dun wish to repeat. Haix, i have alr make the effort to revise le, juz hope god can help me pass this final hurdle. This will also be a lesson for me to start studying REAL hard for my remaining papers. My mgt paper will be on mondae. GOSH, wondering how am i gonna revise that. Totally Crazy. Juz now went downt to YTCC, to play 5 on 5. Totally in a daze, due to the lack of slp, my body was a little weak, heart is not functioning well. Couldnt realli breathe properly while running as my heart was kind of weak i think. Hence, juz after one game, my mind was blank. Realli GONG DIAO. So i stopped playing and later went home. Intend to catch some slp but went down to eat dinner with the accompany of MING... Oppx its 1132... gotta go, tke care everyone!!!!!!

haix, wads wrong!!!!!!!

2005-09-05T11:43:00.000+08:00

MAN!!!!!! wads wrong with me... ArGh!!!! Feeling so uncomfortable now. So pissed, fed up, uncomfortable, vexed, mad. Everything is all messed up. Upside down. I realli dunno how long i can tolerate. Haix wads goin on in me. So easily get worked up. Guess im having a mood swing now. Getting pissed off when i cant get to eat ZHU CHA at the coffee shop below my block, when there are so mani ppl taking orders. I looked at the other remaining stalls, malay and char siew rice stall. Realli a turn off. No mood to eat when im very hungry now. In addition, i juz put aeroplane on my bro. Before goin down for dinner, i still agreed to play ball with him at our neighbourhood court. But juz now when i went down, i saw the grd was still wet. I guess the court is still wet. I went to the court to check it out, indeed, its wet. Feeling so fed up. Initially, i was gonna bring along qiang's shoe, lucky i din, if not realli bring along for nth. Well, in the end, i juz decide not to eat or play ball, and went back home. So here i am blogging. Todae juz receive tt sms again. Haix, dunno if u noe my blog and tt ure reading this. I dun even noe if the tag was realli from u. Duno y, but i think my tolerance level has reached its peak. Hope i can have the courage to tell u man... -__-' Now gonna meet qiang to pass him back his leathy shoes. Think gonna go yt mac to eat my dinner and perhaps study a little over there bahz. CIAOZ. -_-

An Outing With 3 Towers.....

2005-09-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

Yea, my title tells everything. Actualli, i was thinking of starting my revision todae but had no company eh, and juz nice han, val and ming called me to join in their outing so i agreed. It was quite fun throughout the day. Went to that dunno wad fair, all types of brands of com and laptops at the suntec convention centre. Sonia and Alan were working there, so coincident that both got the same lobangs under APPLE. Oppx, miss out one pt. Before heading to Suntec, we went to this shop selling pirated games in bukit merah. A month ago, we were still searching high and low for this kind of shop, but to no avail. As selling pirated stuffs in SG is illegal, perhaps there are very few shops left. Just so happen, val's cousin told him so we made our way down to the place and were lucky to find that shop. I bought a PC game named Brother In Arms and PS 2 game named Snooker. Juz now tried out my snooker game and it was quite real. Nice game!!! Well think i can only try the other one tmr as its very late now. Haix, wad am i goin to do, to be cruel and tell the truth or juz continue to be nice and patient, and juz keep quiet. So confused. I also dun wish to be cruel but if i dun, im juz making my own life miserable. Wad am i gonna do???

Juz asked from my dad to subsidize the money i spent on those games i paid todae. Guess wad, its a turn off man. At first, he told me not to buy pirated games and ask me to find the game in POPULAR. Madness, i was thinking since when it is a game shop? POPULAR is a bookshop lei, it sells limited types of games. That will be the last option for any gamers to buy their games. I told him tt the pirated shop is selling PC games at 6 and PS 2 games at 12, mkt price for pirated games. Guess wad, he juz told me to get money from my mum. Super pissed. I noe if it will be expensive to buy the non- pirated stuffs and he wouldnt agree, and that is why im buying the pirated. In other words, im also helping him to save money one way or another. Also dun wan to spend so much money. He still rejected. Cmon man, its juz 18 bucks. Realli man, had enough of his nuisance. I can't find any reason for him to reject me, taking the fact tt i seldom ask money from him and that its oni 18 bucks. Shit man, he is my dad, he is also my no. 1 most hated man. I dunno why but i oni this, no one and nth will ever change my opinion of him. He is juz so sick. Stingy, etc, wadever nasty words to describe a man, can also be described on him. I swear I shall not ask from him a single cent anymore. He will receive the same treatment when its time for him to retire and me earning money. Im juz waiting for that time to come.

Sorrie if i sound too nasty, but i juz gotta say, im different when im at home and when im with my frenz. Oni frenz can see the true 4, while u can see the worst of him at home. Tat is why i dislike staying at home, dislike dining with my parents (with HIM ard), hardly ever go out with them. My bro is fine juz tt i will get kind of piss when he starts using my things(personal) without my permission. DUnno why but i juz feel uncomfortable.

Now, goin down to cycle with the same 3 towers again. ha ha. Hope there will be thrills and spills. tke care everyone!!!

Continuation....

2005-09-02T15:59:00.000+08:00

Juz nw watched the Superstars Finals on tv. I was rather touched when kelvin won the this 4 mth long competition, although i support and guess he will take the crown. Its realli even more special and meaningful and special for a person slightly different from we normal ppl. Im realli happi for him. He has gd vocals and of course very popular among singaporeans. I think hes alr famous way before joining this competition. I still remember the first time i heard him sing was at jurong mrt station. The big open space right in front of popular. At first i din realli paid much attention to the surrounding as i was listening to music. Out of a sudden, i heard some1 singing 'I Believe' at the backgrd. As it was one of my fav. song, I decided to stop by and see whose tt mysterious street singer, it was the then wei lian, sitting on a stool, with hands free mic and strumming his guitar. When he finished singing, everyone applauded. I think he realli sang v well, at least to me. So although i onli heard him once, his song left a deep impression in me. Well as for kelly, sad case, Haiz... She realli performed well in the finals, showcasing wad she is best and capable of doing but in the end she lost to wei lian by popularity. At least, looking at the judges results, we all noe that she is indeed a talented singer, perhaps a rising star wannabe. She muz be feeling proud of herself that she has did her best.

Sometimes in life, we dun realli get opportunities whenever we wan. So when it arrives at our doorstep, we should treasure, cherish and make full use of it. I myself, have taken opportunities for granted, or should i juz say, im not realli ready to accept that opportunity. So everytime i will flop. I dun hope to be successful in wadever i do, but i juz hope to be successful in one of the things i do. ;)

At a blink of an eye, soon i will left with another half of my poly life left. This sem has been quite wonderful. Though i have been posted to a different class, but i did enjoyed the lessons i attended. Slowly, i also get to noe a person attending the same class for 1 of my modules. All thanx to BERT, haa, well think i should thank you. ;) Since then, i felt that this new fren has similar thinking as me. Perhaps this is the reason which make us able to communicate well with one another. Yea.

Now tt our exams are rd the corner, i hope all the playful part of me will go away for a while, and that all the hardorking and discipline part of me will start to unfold again. I realli hope i can clear all my modules for this sem. Hopefully, i will be posted back to tt02 nxt sem. Dong and gang, hope u all will work hard tooo. This goes the same to my bball frenz, val, alan, han, carmen, etc, hope u all will study hard. Qiang, jia you for ur final yr proj and the other papers if u hav any. Blader, now keep losing u in billard liao, though this may boost ur motivation in billard, but this doesnt give u an excuse for nt studying. My role model also, muz study hard for ur As, hope to hear u saying ure eligible to study in U.

Wha i sounded like Im leaving this world like tt. LOL, madness. Think im writing out of pt liao. I juz wish everyone will be fine and study hard for their respective exams. JIA YOU!!!!! tke care

fiNalli back to Blog...

2005-09-02T04:30:00.000+08:00

im finalli back to blog. Now, i have some free time before my WDA/MWA grp presentation at 3. Sorry folks for being absent for abt 2 mths? Have been quite busy with sch projects actualli. Apart from that, im also kind of lazy to update my blog entries. As usual, nth special events or incidents happen to me. Life is as normal as before.

Recently, me, jas, carmie and ming juz help our BIG HEAD boss to celebrate his bdae. LOL! We intend to give him a surprise by hiding ourselves near the toilet in mac, before ming bringing the boss in there. But tt han really spoiler de eh. Muz turn his head here and there, look in all directions. Cant he juz sit down there facing the side entrance of the mac and wait patiently?Haix our efforts all wasted... lol But im also to blame la, never hide properly enough, din noe there is a mirror behind me. So in the end, I was caught red handed by him. -__-' But it was rather exciting. We gave him a t shirt( hope he will wear it, at least shows tt he likes tt), and wrote a our greetings and msgs on a piece of coloured paper. Went Suki Sushi to eat our dinner and follow by some beancurd at 302. It was rather fun and enjoyable. A birthday 'surprise' han and a small gathering for us. Ha Ha.

I've been waiting for this day to be over. After 3.30, i can relax a little le. Coz there are no more projects. But here comes the exam papers which are juz abt 2 weeks from now. I realli hope i can clear all my modules this sem so tt i can have a higher chance in being posted back to my original class. But i dun mean that i have communication probs with my current class. My current class mates are frenli, nice and helpful ppl. Its juz that i can communicated better with my original classmates compared to the current ones. At least tts how i feel. But if im able to complete all my modules for this sem, i still have 2 xtra modules waiting for me, marketing and macro. Haiz. Other than sch work, i also have another thing that bothers me. Well, needless to say, it shall be basketball again. Sch selection has alr started. Currently, there are abt 30 players in the training squad. Though this year, the overall standard of the team has slightly lower than the prevoius batch of players, but i think my place for the final 12 is not secured. There are quite a no. of players whose abilities are some what of mine. To name a few, terry, jeffery, xi hong, etc. Although i dun realli think i stand any chance, but i still wont give up, since im alr training with them, so might as well fight and train till the end. But where can i get my motivations when the coach himself is notresponsible? He still can give us reasons like, i dunno todae got training. Madness. As for now, i juz hope to enjoy the training sessions with these guys as most of them are better players than me. I should be honoured to be training with them. Recently also feel like goin to gym often. Yes, the 'gym' feeling is back. Hope it will be there forever. I wanna be fit and strong so as to survive in this game. For ht, i've alr lost to ppl quite alot. My jumping ability is not enough to cover this weak pt, so i've gotta be strong so as to withstand my opponent's aggressiveness. Toking to be aggressiveness, mani told me that this is also smth i lack of in my playing style. I've no idea how to train aggresiveness, perhaps i need some advice from my u ppl too.

Recently, i juz found out some thing. Actualli, im too naive. Initially, i was hoping to be train by MX one day, as he is my first coach. But i think i can stop dreaming alr. Han lin said smth which realli make sense to me. Cant realli expect MX to juz come back and tke charge of everything, since he has alr let coach guang and teck to handle the senior and junior squad. Continued......

unhappy, disappointed, sad, these are wad BBALL, smth which is part of my life for yrs, has done to me.

2005-06-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

Monday, hornets played against XING YEW, we lost. 24 pts i think. Prasat was slightly too much to handle for us. SK, Daren, was speedy and outrun us.

Wed, todae, hornets played against TAGAWA, we lost. 70-24. 46 pts difference. Slightly shocked. Johnson and Guangzhou played rather well. Jeffery was not bad too. Wen Bang not that outstanding. We? CONFUSION* We put on a bad display of skills. HAiz.

Im 18 this yr. Let me name all the competitions that i have taken part before ; Yew Cheow Tong Cup (3 times), Youth Cup(2 times), Delta 5 on 5, Taman Jurong Cup, Boon Lay Cup, Skudai Cup(2 times), IVP(NGEE ANN). THough not many, but im still considered experienced, being exposed to quite a number of different kinds of matches. Playing against youths ard my age or men that are much older than me. From wad i have stated, there is absolutely no reason why i shldnt perform in my last youth cup. Logically speaking, I should have loads of confidence for myself. Shld be playing matches as though im at ytcc. Get a ball and shoot when im free. High percentages of making the shots. Drive to the basket when im closely guard or no freedom to make shots in ytcc isnt a difficult task for me. I also can be seen taking difficult rebounds with guys taller than me. Sounds cool and fearsome isnt it. Its all a lie. BIG FAT LIE. Its not factual. Not anymore. Im peanuts in competitive basketball. The one which every opponents hope to meet and guard, not forgetting bully. Its the same as before. Not much of a change at all. I've been constantly asking myself. What will i get out of playing competitive basketball? The goals that i have set for myself, am i anywhere near it? Well, these answers are negative. I onli waste my time goin trainings, waste my time when im shooting the ball, waste my team mates' and BBALL palz time when im playing with them. For yrs, like wad COach teck had said, this stone has been in me. All these while, im juz a shadow. A lunatic in the woodbridge hosp. not bein freed. Im the one who built the enclosures. Realli dunno wads strong. Think mayb i need to take a break, long break from BBall.

I juz wanna say I LOVE YOU, basketball. Thnx for being part of my life all these yrs. Though there are ups and downs, but still a big thank you for bringing enjoyments into my dull life. I dunno man. VEX!!!!

Juz need some time.

CougH HELLO? IS THERE ANYONE IN HERE?

2005-06-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

manx! quite busy recently. And also din realli hav much to blog. WEll so lets start of with BAsketball. LAst Wed, eng tat youth had a frenli with the female NAtional team. We won by 4. There are onli 9 players sia. But the surprising thing was that i finalli perform and show wad im best at, shooting. It was also the first time, i played a match as though i was playing 5 on 5 in my neighbourhood bBall court. The feeling was gd indeed. I was 'myself'. Hav realli been waiting for this for soooo long. Scored 3 3pters i think. A total score of abt 17. Was realli quite happi. HaIz but this kind of feeling onli happens once in a blue moon. Mayb when im playing the 2nd rd of youth cup, it will the same again? I dunno. The youth team onli left with 8 fully fit players with one not in his best condition. Mk injured his ankle while playing the last match of first rd. SAd case. Who will dominate the rebounds for us? The 2nd rd draw was out todae. We are in group S along with TAGAWA, XING YEW and HOUGANG METEOUR. I wont wanna say anything. I juz hope we can win them. Its my last youth tourney, perhaps my last major one. REalli hope we can meet our target which is top 8. We muz win all in order to be the first in our grp. Onli the top team frm each grp emerge to the 3rd rd. Juz gotta clear wad ever shit tts in my mind and juz play my GAME. Win is all i can think of. Fight and give them 40 mins of hell is my mentality. YEA!!!

School, actualli nth much realli happens in sch. Haven been catching up with my work. Stil abit unclear abit my modules. Hope i can clear my doubts this weekend. Realli wanna study hard. I wan to prove myself i also can study if i wan to. Best wishes to everyone i noe, hope u guys will have less probs to face. CHEERS* =x

haIz... SeTb4cKs???

2005-06-01T13:47:00.000+08:00

haix... ytd wasnt an easy day to pass... realli cant believe it but we have lost to nee soon east, whyenam's 3rd team. -__-'' Its gonna be an unforgettable match for me perhaps. Think i din put in my best effort to play the game bahz... Somehow juz feel i can do more than this... Well realli hope i can take my revenge by thrashing M.I tmr... Im now in the sch canteen with 3 od my new classmates... hehheee quite sianx... haven been transfered to another class. Feeling abit uncomfortable... like need to make new frenz again... Haiz.. ytd i have juz lost some1... or sort of fall out with a fren... well reason is kind of stupid bahz but i realli have no other solutions... realli cant find any other way out... Sorrie haix... Though quite disappointed and saD, but well if i have another solution, i will use that... anyway think muz also move on... since nths gonna be the same as before so wad for keep waiting or hoping that this day will still come... juz making myself miserable onli.. now is juz like the title of my blog, i shall start everything with a new beginning... tke care everyone

Borin!!!!

2005-05-28T15:23:00.000+08:00

After the first week of school, i dun realli have tat high level of motivation to study well. Is it another thrilling sem for me, that i will pray hard to juz get a D for my modules? Or i will be hoping to get better grades and not even worryin whether i will fail or not? I realli dunno... Realli hope not... I wanna get better grades... Will try not to allow myself to slack... Finish all my tutorials, no skipping of lectures or tutorials at all... Listen attentively... Haiz, this will lead to another qn, should i go back to PATARA to work? Perhaps onli during the weekends? Mayb eric wont allow that coz a part-timer shld work at least 4 shifts? But i need some cash. Wanna dress up nicely, at least to suit more with the trend these days.. *DILEMMA* Anyway, i'm gonna cut my hair tmr, hope my hair stylist can cut a hairstyle which suits me, at the same time suit with the new trend too... Pray hard that tmr hes free at 1 coz i have yet to make any reservations... Argh!!! Tmr's my first game... Wish me luckssss guys... Shall show everybody wad i can do best... shootin, driving, jumpin, swiftness.... At a blink of an eye, Im alr 18, playin my last youth cup... Im old le... How far can i go in BBAll? I wonder.........

whoo... Haven been Blogging... Any1 Miss me??

2005-05-22T16:53:00.000+08:00

ha wad a title to start with... hee hee... but i doubt so if theres any... btw recently there isnt much thing happens and im as usual, busy with my work.. Well actualli i saw this decent young lady dining at my workplace.. Oh gosh, she realli make mi skip a few heart beats... Haven been goin thru this type of special feeling for a looong time le.. U guys need not anyhow think... She isnt gorgeous, dun have super nice figure, no heavy make ups, but she simply gives me the x factor, the special feel ... Made some eye contacts with her and was successful to catch her attention... ha but in the end she somehow, trying to send a message to me using her body language... She rest her head on her palms with her elbow lying on the table... And her ring was clearly seen... hehehe on the 4th finger of her left hand... OOOh... INteresting.. hahhaa!!! But i guess she is in her early 20s... So its impossible... Ha but quite an interesting experience... Coach has announced the name list of selected players for this coming youth cup... Yupx im selected... but not realli thrilled or excited... Coach and myself noes that i have deproved le... also dunno wad im doin... my last youth cup le... and yet not doin any preperations... Think i will be shooting some balls tmr nite bahx... MY SHOOTING FEEL, WHERE ARE YOU!!! hehehee Yea tmr goin sentosa with YQ... SHUANG MANX!!! ttS ALL folks... tke care!!!

TurNing Pt....

2005-05-15T15:36:00.000+08:00

hAiZzz... think, after living for 18 yrs, this yr shall be the yr which i learn to be matured. Matured in wadever i do. Learn how to think. Learn how to react. Learn how to handle my stuffs. Learn how to do all of these maturedly... haha is there a word like this? hmmm anyway yes, this yr shall be the turning pt of my life. Where i will start living my life slidely different due to some changes to it. Loneliness will be felt in most of my days. Lucky Im already used to it. Phew! Now juz need to find some motivation and ego to study. Hehee thinking of finding a partner for it. HMMM who shall it be? Well have a few ppl in mind actualli but mayb there will be a problem. And tt is conveniency. Ha SHall see how it goes. Youth cup is also ard the corner too. Haven done any preparations for it. My gdness. Its my last tourney and yet im not putting any effort? Think its too late bahz. Mayb can onli try to get back my shooting touch. The rest is juz based on my weekly trainings le. Think this yr will also be the same bahz... No one supporting... hehehee mayb im destined not to have any1 supporting me... Last yr during tt period, dun have a gf, while this season, a no tooo... Mayb god realli wans me to learn how to be independent... I shall learn hard tooo.... Coz i will need to be independent in the future... So why not start now... hmm gd idea indeed. HA... There is still another week to go before school starts and before i stopped working. Cant wait for this day to come. Realli cant stand everything in work anymore. Atrocious sialx... Nvm. Its my life. ITs hard... Anyway on the other hand, also feel tt its a bad idea that sch is starting. It means i have to start studying alr, less playing time for me unless for weekends. It will be a busy sem as i promised myself to work hard. Realli dunno how determined i am and do i have tt ego to accomplish my task. Juz try my best and zou yi bu suan yi bu liao. Well when sch reopens, everything will kind of change a little too. My timetable might not be the same as my classmates too. Which means i will alone again. Studying with new classmates for my repeated module.... Hmmm shall look forward this sem with new hopes and goals... Be positive and strong... If not u will end up losing everything... Yea!!!! I hope all my frenz will have this phrase in their mind at all times... Strive hard guys!!! take care...

BUsY bUsy DaY!!!

2005-05-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

ooOOH!!! Hell man! Todae is a realli realli busy day. Lucky everything its over. Phew! Even the boss of patara came down which i dunno for wad reasons. Finally got a chance to put everything clear to my manager that im not working when school starts. Haix haven been feeling quite well recently. Sundae nite having a terrible stomachache. Den heard that the customers had complain for food poisoning. Hmm? No wonder! And now im feeling abit unwell again. YEs! ITs my stomach. Argh!!! Lucky tmr not working. HAiz... Now looking back ay my life, think im starting to see some light. Starting to be matured in my thinking. I noe some things will not be the same as before. Gd things that happen to me in the past, will not be experiencing anymore. Everything has changed. And here I am to say once again, A new chapter of my life has begun. WEll, think i shld have this mind set. There is onli 1 life, so why not learn to live it to the fullest? Enjoy it? Make yourself happy instead of misery! yea so hope all my frenz out there will have this mindset too... stay happi and tke care!

wad a busy day... -__-'

2005-05-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

Phew! Tiring day indeed. Limbs are weak. Haix quite sianx too. Ah neh realli abit over board le. Its my first time packin up the dessert stuffs. Realli idiot lei. Of course im slow ma. DUHZ. But nvm la, this is human being. They tend to neglect how other's feel. I understand la so wont hold grudges. Went home with my captain who stays near YTCC. Had quite a little long conversation. Quite enjoyed the ride home. Nth much todae. Gonna go tanning with 'eminem'. Yea finalli found a partner. After tt still have to go queensway to buy shoe with alan. And at nite, its training time. Hope it will enjoyable. ;) Tke care every1

Another day has Juz passed Like tt!

2005-05-05T16:09:00.000+08:00

Yes, the title states everything for this post. Worked the whole day, glad that time passed quite fast. Everything goes quite smoothly in Patara. Quite contented and comfortable to work there le. Well actualli im feeling kind of bored and sian to work le, but at the same time i noe that if i dun work, i will be living each day aimlessly in my own world, and alwaz feeling that time pass very slowly. Dilemma* But of course is continue workin lo, at least still can earn money to buy my own stuffs. Today business was quite ok. Not very busy too. But somehow quite tired. Well think i have made a promise to myself. Juz hope that i wont break it again and again, like i did in the past. *Pray Hard*. Think as for basketball, i shall juz continue my own mentality le. Let nature take its course. Dun wanna purposely train for it. Im selected then gd for me. Not selected then its fine for me. Ha heck care le. Playing main 5 of not, is no longer a problem or goal for me le. I noe coach doesnt have confidence on me. I admit im not gd either. Juz waiting for MX to take over 1 day. Well tts all, tke care every1. ;)

OOOh kind of deserted liao huh???

2005-05-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

Its realli quite long since i last blog. Have been quite busy recently. Working and playin YCT cup. Juz played the our last match todae and it kind of sucked. Haiz. Miss passes everywhere. Dunno why too. Think my first 2 matches are better. Well after these few matches, i dun realli think i have any improvement. My way of playing and idea is still like a naive and innocent young teen playing basketball. Mayb there is realli some reasons behind it that ive yet to find out. Looking at myself in Bball, wondering how long will i still be playing competitively. Will i end juz like tt after this yr's youth cup? Or there will be a miracle? Think let it be natural bahz. Long time din get encouragement and support frm ppl liao. Thnx to those 3 who had came dwn to watch and the writings on the balloon. Realli appreciate it. Actualli once in a while receive this kind of support and encouragement is kind of touched, knowing that in ths world, there are actualli ppl who feel ur presences. THnx man! Not forgetting another 3 who came to watch and support every match. Be it whether they juz wan to witness this match instead of supporting me or wadever reasons, i appreciate their presences. ;) Realli grateful guys. XH, actualli felt abit uncomfortable when i din see u came todae as u said earlier on tt u will. But juz read ur blog, that few words is enuff le. Thnx too. Looking at my messed up life now, realli dunno wad to do. Dunno which to start clearing up and start a fresh. Wondering how long will i have to be alone in this road. Nowadays, nth much 2 do. Onli can work and train. Is my life realli this happening? haha! Man, i muz learn how to be strong and stay positive in the future. Think i have to start from scratch bahz. Haix. T8 care frenz. =)

Wha... WEak Man...!!!!

2005-04-24T16:37:00.000+08:00

Phew! A day has juz passed like this, so easily. But think is realli quite tiring for me. Cant realli stand for hrs and I slept at 3 plus last nite. The ppl there are nice and frenli. But dunno is this onli temporary, afraid that during e long run, i might discover their bad pts. Hope not bahz. Its quite enjoyable to work there, but i think i muz learn how to endure long hrs of standing. Such weak legs i have. Well, think i dun have to worry that my holis are gonna be boring. Think when sch reopens, i have to realli wake up my idea and buck up on my studies. No more fooling ard and wasting time. I have wasted 1 yr of my poly sch days. Have been realli realli slack. My marks are mostly at the borderline. Have failed 1 module in each sems. Gonna stop this shit. Not gonna let unimportant stuffs affect my studies anymore. Im starting to feel abit guilty for not putting much effort in my studies. YCT cup is rd the corner. I was selected to play for the junior team. Well nowadays not realli that enthu in playin main 5 or whether i can perform during the match. Somehow juz lost e enthusiasm. Juz feel that as long as i can still play Bball, im very happy and contented alr. Feel like goin tanning at cck pool again. The environment is gd as there is onli a few souls in the late mornin. Mayb can jio some ppl to accompany me, or i shall go dwn myself again. Actualli during this holiday, i sort of learn how to live this world alone, or mayb used to it alr. I dunno whether its a gd or bad thing. Dun wanna noe either. Nvm shall wait for another soul who is willing to accompany me thru this lonely dull world... Tke care every1 and never neglect ur loved ones... Gd nitez... -__-Zzz

Nver gonna enjoy my days.......

2005-04-19T16:08:00.000+08:00

Have been trying hard to make myself 'busy', if not I will feel miserable and terrible staying at home. It also helps to stop myself from thinking unnecessary things. Ytd went to watch the senior hornets battling against the stronger and defending champs of A div, Home U. Well, sad to say but true, during their warm ups, I already think that the hornets will have to go beyond their limits in order to win this battle. Home U has a huge depth of better players, compared to hornets. The hornets tried their best, but to no avail. They lost 24 pts. Michael wasnt realli in his top form for his 3s. Da Kang also fumble at times, din realli perform his best. Sad to see them lost their 2nd consecutive finals to their same opponents.

Today, I din realli have anything on. Basically juz went to the gym in late noon with Alan. Din realli do much work out there as I was quite restless. After tt, went home to rest and cycle to ytcc to shoot bball at nite. Quite borin actualli as there wasnt much ppl there too. After tt went cycling ard. Realli enjoyed the ride as I havent been riding for quite some time. Cycling realli can free me frm my daily problems. Haiz, but thats onli temporary. The moment i reached home, everythings back to normal. Well, Im still me, still have my list of troubles and problems. How I wish I can run and hide away from them. But its hard too. I cant even bring myself to do tt. They are alwaz in my mind, and everyday im facing them. Cant escape unless im dead or migrating else where; living in a new environment. Some times, when smth tt u once treasure is gone, it will be gone 4ever. Even if its back, the scenario and feeling will never be the same again. Same old words, treasure ur loved ones now for they may not be forever.

Current mood: TENSION- Oh tell me why

mY 1sT bLoG!!!

2005-04-16T15:23:00.000+08:00

Hehe. My title act like very excited. But actually theres nth special. Haix now listening to 'I'll be with you'. Suddenly have this thought that as if i have no friends, feeling so lonely. Its also difficult to explain the feeling. My heart felt very uncomfortable, as though it was compressed. Last time, I lived my life with goals, targets, dreams and at the same time, i felt that I'm never lonely. Well, its a total change now. I think Im nowhere near my targets and i don't think I can ever achieve them. On the other hand, I kind of have this thinking that I'm living this world alone. I have lost the reason to live. It seems like Im getting to nowhere. Aimless, depressed, low moraled, blank. I even lost my mood to find job le. Everyday, Im either juz playing PC games or basketball. Nothing much. What an aimless life im living. Juz hope school to start soon. Opps! Almost forgot to mention, I dun even noe if Im eligible to prmote to Yr 2. -__-''' Think shall juz let god decide since I have already tried studying for my exams, though I din put in alot of effort. So thats all for my first post, juz plainly xpressing my feelings and thoughts.
-LONE-

A new beginning, a new chapter of my life starts to unfold.... again.

a change for the better....

2 more weeks to go!!!

A new stage of my life... NS, exclusively for SGporeans...

Its getting near....

Wads been happening recently....

Regret...

Long Break From Blogging....

My Lovely 2 Faith

Busy weeks!!!!

HUH!!! not again... -___-''

Finally... Back...

first lesson....

holidays....

challenges....

lifeless life...

past and present events update....

it has been really long to come up with this....

New Hopes!!!

MIA for months.... back for good!!!

shagged!!!

boring sundae!!!!

SchLibrary....

Long Break From Blogging....

Boredism....

I feel GOOD!!!

??????

is SLPIN very difficult?

XIAN SHI DE SHI JIE..... -__-

think its time.....

SHAQ!!!!!!!!!

Job HUNT successful!!!!!!

Meaningless day...

SiaNsAtion!!!!

quickBlog....

haix, wads wrong!!!!!!!

An Outing With 3 Towers.....

Continuation....

fiNalli back to Blog...

unhappy, disappointed, sad, these are wad BBALL, smth which is part of my life for yrs, has done to me.

*CougH* HELLO? IS THERE ANYONE IN HERE?

haIz... SeTb4cKs???

Borin!!!!

whoo... Haven been Blogging... Any1 Miss me??

TurNing Pt....

BUsY bUsy DaY!!!

wad a busy day... -__-'

Another day has Juz passed Like tt!

OOOh kind of deserted liao huh???

Wha... WEak Man...!!!!

Nver gonna enjoy my days.......

mY 1sT bLoG!!!

CougH HELLO? IS THERE ANYONE IN HERE?